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Title of the Day: God's Perfect TimingToday I have a chance to visit my two "old" friends, Benji and Eunice at their CMC chinese youth service. Today was their third day in running and the service has about 20 people included some adults. Although it was a very new, small and young service, but everyone there was on fire with God! I felt the present of the Lord when I was there. Grace, use to be in YMM, was leading the worship... it was wonderful. I can see the anoiting of God was with her throughout the worship. I thank God for the gift of singing and in worship. She even compose a worship song! wao! Praise the Lord! It have been quite a while that I have been ministered by God himself.. it has been a long time I have cry out my heart to him and today at the service... in God's perfect timing... he ministered to me and deal with issues of hurts and anger... I was shocked.. I though I have overcome it... but the fact is it has been hidden in me for a very long time... Sarah was preaching half way when God ministered to her and she just felt down on her knees and cry... Aunty Serene (if I got the name correct) came to pray for her and ministered to her. While we were praying, aunty Serene came over to me and told me that she has lead by the spirit to ask me to let out my anger and hurts that I have kept in me... I was stunned... I couldnt believe it at first but as the worship continue, benji began to pray for me and finally... I was touch by the holy spirit to let out all my hurts and burden I have.... I cried... Suddenly I felt a big hug coming from my back... it was aunty serene.. it was amzing how God use aunty serene to tell me what I am currently going through! The brokeness, pains, hurts and anger that has been in me... Ltr after the service, Aunty Serene shared with me that when she look at me, God had remind her about a nephew of her whom has onces went through a tough time... During those days, her nephew was a strong believer in God, but he went into a relationship problem which began to weaken him in God... he nearly backslided.. but God pull him back... during those time, Aunty Serene went through the process with her nephew and God just delievered this young men.. and now.. he is happliy married. Wao... it was like... I dont know how to explained... God just use people to minister to me at a time, place and date which I have nv expected. Indeed 2006 was a crazy and painful year for me... and I long to be free... Today I finally understand two things, 1) God's thoughts is higher then our thoughts so is his plan, is higher then ours 2) God's has a timing that is different from ours... he will caught us when we are least expected... I felt free.. I thank God tat he has ministered to me today and I want to pray that God will blessed what the chinese youth over at CMC has started, that they will be fruitful and multiply in numbers! that more and more people will came to know the words... Heavenly father, I was caught unaware today by you... I thank you for relasing me through those tears that I have shed. I thank you for brothers and sisters over at CMC that has help minister to me. Lord I can sense that you are blessing this church greatly.. I thank you for placing Benji and Eunice at there for a purpose, which is to futher your kingdom sake and also to build a strong foundation of your words in those youth there.. Lord bless them, bless their work.. even though they are no longer in YMM, father I believe that no matter where we are serving... no matter which church we are in, we are still one body of Christ. Thank you for today, it was amazing... thank you Lord.. in Jesus name I pray... Amen
I shine in Jesus | 12:23 am
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Saturday, January 20, 2007
Title of the day: Turning 23..Oh 23 liao!! old Liao!! haha this is what some of my friends had told me... well supposely I should be feeling that way.. but this year was special. In fact I feel very young!! hahaha... some people might think I am crazy or what but I felt excited as I turn 23 on 17 Jan 07. 2007 will be a busy and challenging year ahead. I pray that this year will be a year where I will have lots of break through in my life specially in my walk with my heavenly Ah Pa! Heaven Father, thank you for your protection and covering over me last year, indeed 2006 was a storm and I was once in the valley of shadow of death... but Lord I thank You for your grace and mercy that I have walk through it. I pray that 2007 will be a new year that Lord you will direct my path into a greater picture. Continue to shape me into the person that you want me to be and I pray also in 2007 to be use by in to do your work in all area. Shining for you, sharing your Love with others and most importantly, staying FOCUS on you and drawing closer to you... this is my desire... I commit it into your hand... in Jesus name I pray... Amen
I shine in Jesus | 12:38 am
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Title of day = ForgivenessForgiveness.... this is what is lacking in this world right now... It is a word that a lot of people dont believe in also.. but God in the bible has spoken many times about forgiveness... Jesus tell us to forgive a person 70 x 7 times... and when he say this, he means we have to forgive a person no matter what he/she has did to us. Sound impossible? sounds out of the world? "you mean we have to forgive a person even till the extend of he/she hurt us badly or kill our love ones etc.." The answer is YES! wao... what an forgiveness... at first I cant accept it also, I told myself..."it is too hard!! not possible! not fair for me to forgive those whom has hurt me?!" But God say that if we dont forgive, we will be like a person, been cage up with anger, bitterness and this will affect our growth as a person. I like this story that I came across when I was conducting anger management in this primary schools, that we share with the kids about forgiveness. The story goes like this, "A boy was on the way back home when suddenly a bird flew over his head and landed shit on his nose! He was so so angry! He shouted at the bird and ask him to come back but it flew away. He was so angry with the bird that he decided to not clean off the shit on his nose as he is determine to want the bird to come back and apologise. So days went by and the boy stinks as he didnt clean off the shit, still thinking "I want the bird to come back and apologise!". He smell very bad and all of his friends left him one by one as they cannot stand the smell. finally after 2 weeks. The boy finally realise that the bird would not come back anymore and if he dont clean off the shit, more friends will not want to befriend him. so he decided to clean the shit off and he smells good again!" haha.. well although this story didnt talk much about what is forgiveness, but one thing for sure that if we dont release forgiveness, we will be like the boy refuse to clean off the shit on his noise and soon the "smell" will cause people to avoid us. Not only that but we too will feel very terrible. It has not been easy for me to forgive a person. But I thank God I am now in the process to lend how to release forgiveness to the person. It is really no easy, somtime I felt not fair! the person hurt me so much and cause me to go through so much and u want me to forgive the person?? not fair! But God remined me..."Son, is it then fair for me to send my only son to you, to die for you when u are sinning against me? is it fair for Jesus to suffer so much and then to die for the cross just to save our sins when he has done nothing?" I kept quiet... and I quickly repent and ask for forgiveness.... It is all about CHOICES. we have Choices to made whether or not to forgive the person whom has hurt us so much. and today.. I have chossen to forgive that person.... Heavenly Father, I thank you for you first forgive me for my sins. I thank you for telling me that the only way to get out of that pain is to forgive. I thank you for showing me that the only way to feel free is to forgive that person whom has hurt me very much. Right now I pray in Jesus name, that I CHOICE to forgive that person and I want to pray for the person that Lord you will continue to bless that person abudencely. I pray as I begain to learn how to forgive, Lord you too will forgive all my wrong doings.. let me seek you daily and keep me by your side. I pray all this in Jesus most mighty name.. Amen.
I shine in Jesus | 11:23 pm
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Title of day = 2007... a year of Focus!Happy New Year to all!! A brand new year has come and is time to set goal for 2007... well last year I didnt really sat down and think what is my goal but for I felt that as I grow, I got set some goals for myself, goals that will help me to develop into a person in God likness... I ask God what can be my goal for 2007 and a word came frome him... "Focus" hahaha... wao... Focus... one of my weakest link is I will easily lost focus in a lot of things and end up getting into trouble or causing myself to get hurt... thinking back 2006 was a year of high and low... I been through the lowest point of my life... expenciseing the worst pain I ever had before even till now... but I still choose to praise God for it... praise him for his faithfulness, comfort, and healing during the time of pain and stress... This reminds me of a song which there is a part says "you give and take away, you give and take away... but my heart will still choose to say, lord blessed be your name.." Indeed 2006 Lord has gaven me a gift but however I lost this gift and is taken away... yes.. not easy.. many people say I am too emotional liao.. haha but I told them that's me... that's how God have created me... to take thing seriously... Anyway.. a brand new year ahead... I pray that this word "Focus" will be my target, my dream of 2007... Focus on God, his work and mission, Focus on building up a healthy life and body, Focus on my passion for the young adults in my church, Focus on my spiritual walk with God, Focus on my relationship with friends and love ones, Focus on touching lifes of those youths I came in contact with in my work or in BB or in church.. etc etc.... Dear Lord, I wish you a happy new year! indeed, lord you are a God whom give and take away things that you feel is not doing gd for us, looking back in 2006 on those times of dark period, u gave and take away... I am sorry lord during tat times I scolded you, getting angry at you.. pls forgive me lord... forgive me for been ignorance about yr goodness for me... forgive me also for my sins that I have committed... I pray as you gave me the word "Focus".. 2007 will be a year of Focus in all aspects of my life... I pray that 2007 will be a break through also for me... I thank you and praise you in Jesus name.. Amen
I shine in Jesus | 1:31 am
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