My days on earth...

2008-07-13T13:31:00.002+08:00

Title of the day = Work is Worship!

Sunday service @ Grace Assembly of God. by Executive Pastor Rev Calvin Lee

Gen 39: 2-6

* offend you feel like dragging your foot to work? feeling tired and feel like you don't want to work anymore?! Let's look at Joseph's life!

1. A right perspective!! (Gen 39:2-6)
- Joseph was working for the Lord all the time!!! despite the situation he is, he is always giving his best, not for the the sake of the work or men but God... as a result, God bless his work all the way!! he is the best servant! He is the best prisoner! and finally he is the best PM of Egypt!

2. A strong Principle (Gen 39:7-10)
- Joseph honour God and pleased God when he flee from temptation.
* if we please men, there will nv be no ending of pleasing and we will get tired out!! But not with God!!

The story of a donkey, an old men and a young boy!

One day the old men, taking a boy and his donkey went pass the 1st village, the people in the village saw them and said, "how stupid of the old men! he can just ride on the donkey and need not get so tired!" so after hearing this, the old men sat on the donkey and carry on with his journey. Then he came to the second village, the people there saw and said to him,"the poor young boy will be tired out from the journey, as an adult you should let him sit on the donkey instead!!" and so the old men got down from the donkey and put the boy on it and carry on.

Then they came to the third village, people saw the boy is on the donkey and said "Aiyo! how can this young boy not let the old men sit on the donkey?The boy is young and strong enough to walk by himself!!" and so the boy got down and the old men sat on it. When they got to the forth village, the villagers say to the old men "why not both of you sat on the donkey together?!" and so the old men and the boy sat together on the donkey...

However, when they walk past the fifth village, the people there were very angry with them!! "how can they be so cruel to the poor donkey!!" In the end, the poor old men and the boy ended up carrying the donkey instead!!!

I think you can guess the moral of the story right? haha...

3. A deep passion (Gen 39:21-23)
- having a deep passion is a driving force for us to do our very best for God!!

4. A Great Purpose! (Gen 45:4-7)
- ask our self! what is my purpose in my work place?? am I glorifying God??

* We can actually make our work more meaningful and purposeful! God want us to experience his blessing in our work today! are we letting him to do so?! ;)

2008-07-13T13:08:00.002+08:00

Updates!!

Hmm... well from the period of Jan 08 till now now July... many many things has happen, if I were to summaries it, I went through a time of stormy session especially in the month of June...
A roller coaster ride of my life in work, studies as well as in church, so much so I become "chao ta" burn out... tired... in the midst of breaking down.... I even felt that my heart has harden towards God and has some how lost Him... it was scary... but yet in these midst, I was reminded by the Holy Spirit that God NV NV NV forsake me or even angry with me...

God spoke to me through a song sang by a Christian rock band, Pillar, title named "smiling down" I was touch by the chores;

"so next time when you feel like crying, next time when you don't feel like trying, just remember I will be right there, smiling down on you. In the morning when i don't feel like raising, next time I feel like compromising, just remember that I will always be right there smiling down on you.."

Wao... that's what I call unconditional and unfailing love men.... even if I dont feel like raising or trying or even compromise things... He nv fail to smile down on me and be RIGHT there!

I prayed and told God.. that's it!! I have enough of me so unstable in my spirtual walk with you that has compromise alot of things... I want to renew my first love for him, I want to seek him, I want to find him!! Alone, without any distraction, taking a break from my services and find Him.... Thus I have decided to take a break from my church for a month and seek him during this period as I visit Grace Assembly of God at Bukit Batok to search for Him once again alone.....

During this time I am also praying and seeking new direction and focuses thus maybe making some descision and changes if He lead me to it. I felt that I am running like a headless chicken, serving here and there not knowing his direction for me... I think is think to make things right and clear..

I wanna take this time to thank all my friends in church and workplace and others for prayers and encouragement... and also apologise if I have been affecting you guys in any area especially during my AWOL period in church... pls continue to keep me in prayer for God's direction, renewing and focus on his path for me... :)

2008-07-13T00:42:00.000+08:00

Phew!!! really didnt update my blog for more then 7 months!!! ahahaha... ok will TRY to update it ok?! =P

Meanwhile God Bless everyone!! =D

2007-12-27T09:36:00.000+08:00

Title of the Day = Ups and Downs

Okie okie I know.. have been a little busy and lazy at the same time not updating my blog hahaha... Just completed my reservist (YEAH!) and are heading back to work liao.. well most guys will say that reservist is the best time to slack and relax for work.. but for me is a little different... ok I enjoy the relax part but at the same time... it was sooooooooooooo boring during the two weeks that I cant wait to go back to office to work!!! crazy huh? u may say lah but that's me u see.. heehee =P

A thanks giving to God!! what I can only share is that God has answered my prayer towards my Degree study loan!! It was amazing! cant share too much because is a top seceret! haha but I really thank God for his provision! So people out there! if u need help in any kind, do give my God a call ya? and I believe he will answer you! (provided u dont ask for something which is not realisic and crazy lah!)

Ya... there are down sides also this one month plus... facing some tough decission to make and all I can say is... I really pray that the final decission make be a positive one... and whatever it may be.. God.. let your will be done...

"you give and take away, you give and take away, my heart will choose to say, Lord blessed be your name..." Heavenlt Father, let this song be my prayer for today.. whatever things may come along my way.. bad or good.. I will always praise your name.. because of your promises in the bible.. Help me Lord to face throught this dark time and forgive my sins... deliever me from the evil one and help me to be steadfast in my walk with you as well as doing your work... My worth is in you and you alone Lord... I thank you and Praise you in Jesus name.. Amen.

2007-11-02T16:33:00.000+08:00

Title of Day: Love without condition

Love is without condition.. just like how our Heavenly Father love us so much dispite our sin against him, he send his one and only Son to die for us...
I am not sure at all what is the choices made... but I am seek God's peace and comfort if it turns out likewise..
Love is not taking things for granted, but Love is always appreciating..
Love is not selfish, but Love is self-less..
Love is not self seeking, but Love is always seeking for others...
Love does not compromises, but Love is kind and patient...
Love always respect, giving and sacrifices...

I am praying and waiting patiently...

2007-10-22T15:25:00.000+08:00

Title of the Day= The fight of the precious one...

"Yes I will fight for you & will not give you up...
you too are very important thus I want to fight for you...
I will lead you the best I can with the help of our Father...
I will lead you will love, patient and encouragment...
I will not bear any grudges.. I will keep no records of wrong doings...
what i see is the future that is lies ahead.. not the past as dog does not go back to its vomit..
I will never leave you nor forsake you... cause you are a gift from our Father..
and I will treasure you , love you and protect you with our Father been the head of us...."

2007-10-10T11:45:00.000+08:00

Title of the Day: A precious gift from the Lord

Dear God,

I thank you for Dawn, a precious gift that you have given me. A gift that is so nice and sweet, full of passion and love with you, desire to be one of the servant in the harvest field, I thank you for this loving Sister in Christ, a very good friend and some one whom I can love wholeheartedly.. I pray that Lord as we honour you with our timing of friendship period, you will honour our relationship in the future, I thank you and praise you and want to comitt ourself before you.. in Jesus name I pray.. Amen!

2007-09-22T00:06:00.000+08:00

Title of the day: Thank You LORD!

Finally!! after 1 year and 4 months of struggling, with our works, families, commitments, assignments and Exams... We finally completed our Diploma in Counselling Skills (awarded by Edith Cowen University, Australia)

Indeed it have been a tough process for me especially when I have not touch books for so long but indeed God has His good purpose for me as I really benefited from this 1 year plus study and I want to thank God also for my wonderful, wonderful classmates, people like MC, uncle Sammy, Sharon, Queyue, Christina, Rose, Cindy and many more! who have gone through thick and thin together, always gather at uncle sammy's church for group discussion, exam preparation etc.. I thank God for these wonderful people...

One journey have ended and another will be Begin next year, two more years of my Bachelor in Social Science, a continue of my Diploma, which is also the first year of this Degree program. well is going to be even tougher... but hey! scar what! I got God leh!! hahahaha! =P

Heavenly father, I thank you for seeing me and all my classmate through this Diploma, I thank you for all the blessing you have given me and when I wanted to give up, yet you did not give up on me.. I thank you Lord, I want to pray for all my classmates who have brave through this period with me, I ask you will bless them in whatever things they do, whatever course they are taking, grant them favor and wisdom as they go on their path.. I pray also for myself as I close this chapter and begin with another chapter of the degree program, I pray that Lord you will continue to watch over me and grant me wisdom and strength.. I thank you Lord and pray all these in Jesus name.. Amen

2007-07-11T22:59:00.000+08:00

Title of the day = Reunion!

Finally, after 11 years of growing up... a group of our old primary school schoolmates got to meet up once again at Fuchun Primary School openining of their new permissies dinner... I must thanks Li Guo for gathering back the old school friends!! hahaha

Interestingly most of us have seen each other before (only a few of us use to be classmates) and did not communicate not until 11 years later during the dinner then we talk.. hahaha... some of them are also my ex secondary school schoolmates...

The dinner was great, good food, good performance and the most important of all, can catch up with all my old friends, sharing about our past primary school lifes and so on... hahaha thanks God for this gathering... hope that there will be more such gather again!! =)

2007-06-25T15:38:00.000+08:00

Title of the day: Be still

Have you ever suddenly feel very tired of what ever things you are doing, thinking, or feeling? have you ever feel that you want to just stop whatever things that you are doing, thinking or even feeling and just wanna rest and be still? (sound like a potential suicidal person! hahaha but I am not lah!)

Getting kinda tired of doing and doing things, keep thinking about future, worring about things and feeling up and down emotionally and messing up things in my life... haiz... real tired for all this... I just wanna be still in God... hmmm.... just wanna find one weekends to do a silence retreat with God soon... with prayers and worship... found out a story very interesting about this lady how God has "interupted" her during her retreat with God....

Be Still With God by: Nancy B. Gibbs, Source Unknown

All day long I had been very busy; picking up trash, cleaning bathrooms and scrubbing floors. My grown children were coming home for the weekend. I went grocery shopping and prepared for a barbecue supper, complete with ribs and chicken. I wanted everything to be perfect.

Suddenly, it dawned on me that I was dog-tired. I simply couldn't work as long as I could when I was younger. "I've got to rest for a minute," I told my husband, Roy, as I collapsed into my favorite rocking chair. Music was playing, my dog and cat were chasing each other and the telephone rang.

A scripture from Psalm 46 popped into my mind. "Be still, and know that I am God." I realized that I hadn't spent much time in prayer that day. Was I too busy to even utter a simple word of thanks to God? Suddenly, the thought of my beautiful patio came to mind. I can be quiet out there, I thought. I longed for a few minutes alone with God.

Roy and I had invested a great deal of time and work in the patio that spring. The flowers and hanging baskets were breathtaking. It was definitely a heavenly place of rest and tranquility. If I can't be still with God in that environment, I can't be still with Him anywhere, I thought. While Roy was talking on the telephone, I slipped out the backdoor and sat down on my favorite patio chair. I closed my eyes and began to pray, counting my many blessings.

A bird flew by me, chirping and singing. It interrupted my thoughts. It landed on the bird feeder and began eating dinner as I watched. After a few minutes it flew away, singing another song.
I closed my eyes again. A gust of wind blew, which caused my wind chimes to dance. They made a joyful sound, but again I lost my concentration on God. I squirmed and wiggled in my chair. I looked up toward the blue sky and saw the clouds moving slowly toward the horizon. The wind died down. My wind chimes finally became quiet.

Again, I bowed in prayer. "Honk, honk," I heard. I almost jumped out of my skin. A neighbor was driving down the street. He waved at me and smiled. I waved back, happy that he cared. I quickly tried once again to settle down, repeating the familiar verse in my mind. Be still and know that I am God.

"I'm trying God. I really am," I whispered. "But you've got to help me here."
The backdoor opened. My husband walked outside. "I love you," he said. "I was wondering where you were." I chuckled, as he came over and kissed me, then turned around and went back inside.

"Where's the quiet time?" I asked God. My heart fluttered. There was no pain, only a beat that interrupted me yet again. This is impossible, I thought. There's no time to be still and to know that God is with me. There's too much going on in the world and entirely too much activity all around me.

Then it suddenly dawned on me. God was speaking to me the entire time I was attempting to be still. I remembered the music playing as I'd begun my quiet time. He sent a sparrow to lighten my life with song. He sent a gentle breeze. He sent a neighbor to let me know that I had a friend.

He sent my sweetheart to offer sincere sentiments of love. He caused my heart to flutter to remind me of life. While I was trying to count my blessings, God was busy multiplying them.
I laughed to realize that the "interruptions" of my quiet time with God were special blessings He'd sent to show me He was with me the entire time.

Heavenly father, I long to have the time just be still and quiet, praying and worshiping you.. I pray that this day will come quick as I need to be refresh by you once again... I am sorry that I have taken things into my own hands without even consulting you first and guess what... I "mess" things up again.. messing up my work, friendships, feelings etc... but I thank you that you are soooo good that you are willing to help cleaning up my "mess". Father you take over ok? I return my life back to you... help me by reminding me to always seek you first before doing anything... let me be lead by the Holy Spirit rather then my flesh... and help me to be humble all the time, delivered me from temptation and sins, help to remind me to pray for my family, church and friends... Thank you Lord... help me to see the gdness plan that you have for me for the future... I pray all this and cover it with the blood of Jesus.. Amen

2007-06-14T16:57:00.000+08:00

Title of the Day = YMM Church Camp 07

This is the very first time I went for YMM Church Camp ever since I am in YMM for the past... erm.... 5 years? haha.. but for the first time, it was fantastic!! The whole camp was very fun and refreshing! (but was tiring also cause we chiong almost every night and slp at 3am!!!) haha but hey! Camp mah... once a year fellowship with our fellow church mates why not!!

I was specially impacted by our guest speaker Ps Benny Ho's sermon throughout the camp. I thank God for able to been able to invite our founding Ps of YMM back to share the word of God with us!! I am impress by the way he teach a sermon, very visual, very simple to follow... I pray that God will enable me to learn the way how Ps Benny teaches!

I went to the camp with an expectation that I want to have a great and special encounter with God himself, well although there is no BIG BANG that I have with God but through the sermon from Ps Benny, I am able to increase my faith and knowledge about my father up there... a spiritual and also a knowledge breakthrough I will say.... Praise God!! =)

The fellowships with friends, the scenery, the fun and the non-sensible talks and chats with have with one another... that really strengthen our people in our Church. Yes!.. unity.. that is what is all about... I believe this camp has indeed strengthen our church unity as one body of Christ!! Amen..

Heavenly Father, I thank you for all the fun and enjoyment that I have in the camp itself, I thank you specially for allowing Ps Benny to share about your words with us, I am especially touch and move by through through his sermon... Father I pray that this camp will be a break through for our church in terms of unity, I pray that people in our church will be once again united in one body and one heart to be use by you and making an impact for the nation as well as for people in Yishun... I also wanna pray for my fellow church mates, that they will have an breakthrough with you through this camp.. and this camp will not be the ending point, but a beginning revival point for our church and its people... I thank you also for been able to have a special encounter with you Lord.. and I desire more and more of you... Lord I wan to be more like your Son Jesus, humble and serving... use me Lord to touch the life's of people... Let me be decrease while you increase... Father, I love you and praise you in Jesus name I pray... Amen

2007-06-06T00:04:00.000+08:00

Title of the day: Thanks Giving....

Opps... long time nv update my blog liao... well this few weeks was mostly about thanks giving... thanks giving to God of course!! I thank God firstly that my Diploma is coming to an end soon... and I thank God that through his grace and mercy that I am able to get grade 6 and above for my English exam which is one of the requirement for my Diploma as I do not have any O level English! hahaha it is really by his grace... without much preparation and my english is weak... I am still able to make it!! Thank you GOD!! =D

Also wana thank God for my mother, who came to my church during our mother's day celebration!! It was the First time! (and I believe it will not be the last) that she attend church!! was pretty excited to bring my mum there... I am really glade that she enjoy herself... I thank God also that I sense a softening of her heart towards Christianility... but there is still must more to be done... I pray and believe, that one day she and my whole family will be save! Amen!

June is here!! wao is will be a pack month for me... work, submitting of assignments, exams, church camp, BB camp etc... I need strength!! haha and wisdom too...

Heavenly father I thank you for seening me through so far, now I am approaching into a period of busyness.. and I pray Lord you will be sailing through with me.. I need you to guide me and strengthen me! I wana take this time also pray for people around me... friends, churchmates.. those who are struggling with stress, hurts or unsureness... I pray Lord u will guide them out of the dark tunnel into your glory... cause you are our light that shine through the darkness in our lifes... I pray for those who are hurt... that in the name of Jesus Christ... they will be comfort by you and heal by you... I pray for them.. hear their cry lord...I pray also that each day Lord I will get closer to you... use me Lord I pray to heal the sick, drive away evil spirits, blessed my friends, give comfort... I pray that Lord you will use me to show your glory to them.... Forgive me for I have sin against you so many time with thoughts and action... I ask Lord you will give me strength to overcome them! Purifiy me with your Son's blood that has sheld for my redemption... thank you Lord.. I pray all this in Jesus name.. Amen

2007-04-23T23:26:00.000+08:00

Title of the Day = The gathering!

phew... my blog is getting dusty and full of spider web! haha.. no choice leh... this few month is pack with activities and school work.. dont really hv time to rest also...

But thank God! got a chance to met up with two of my primary school classmates, amos and ivy! It has been about more then 10 years!! since we met out! accept for Amos as he is also a Boys' Brigade Officer so we did met out quite often... we went to sentosa and had a great time, chatting, sharing about our lifes.. and also refreshing our past primary school memories!! haha.. great time! special thanks to Amos for planning this gathering! Thanks Bro! Planning for another outing in June.. hoping next round more old friends will be able to join us! haha... :D

2007-02-20T21:14:00.001+08:00

Title of the day: Our family servant, also our family member...

"Yati! Yati!", this is what most of us cousins, uncles and aunties over at the Toh's family (father's side) use to call her.

Yati has been with us for 8 years and she is employed by my 12th uncle and his family. Although she is a maid in my uncle's family but she has been more then a maid to them and also to us... she is like part of us... one of our Toh's member...

I remember when she first came in, I was only 15 years old then (sec 3), during that time my paternal grandfather and grandmother was still around. In the very begaining, she was quite a quiet personnel, quite new also, didnt really know how to communicate to her as she didnt know chinese and only little bit of english but she is able to learn things very fast, especially cooking from my late grandmother.

One remarkable thing I could say about Yati is that, she can now listen and speak very good Chinese! (and her English improve a lot too!) guess thanks to all my uncles, auntie and cousins who have one way or another teaches her. haha...

By right her contract have ended very early but she decided to renew her contract and she did it a few times. But I guess this year CNY will be the last time I will see her again... It is time for her to return to her home in Indonesia next week...

Well... it is kind of sad that she is leaving... cause she has been around for so many years in our family, has been throught good and tough times with us, laugher and tears and most amazingly, she has seen all of us 29 cousins (including myself and my two sisters) grew up from a child, primary school to now teens, secondary school and also from secondary school, to now young adults, working or in Poly / Uni.

She seldom complain nor show a face when things happen, she didnt quit when things get tough, but instead she is always there willing to help and offer her service... especially when both my grandparents were ill on bed.. during that time she took really good care of them till they passaway and I will always remember seening Yati crying a lot of time during my grandparents funeral... it touches my heart as to see how Yati is so close with my grandparents, sometime which we seldom see or heard between a maid and its employer...

I must say we are indeed blessed to have Yati around in our family all this years... although she is employ by my uncle, she did not just focus one doing work for my uncle but also extend her help in what ever family function we have, she has did what is out of her job scoop... she has run the extra miles... now I guess is time for her to return to be with her family and her husband whom she just got married not long ago...

"Yati... we will really miss you! Thank you for all your love, care and hard work you have put in in the Toh family, thank you for everything u have done, every dishes you have cooked, every of joy and laugher you have given us. Thank you also for taking our nonsense, without complains, without been really angry with us etc... All the best Yati back in your home town, will want to visit you back in Indonesia! Take Care!! Wishing you all the best in what ever things u do! God Bless you and your family!"

Heavenly father, I thank you for bring Yati into our Toh family, I thank you even she is employ by my uncle but she has gone an extra mile even to be our rest of family maid, I thank you for her care and love that she has shown to all of us throughout this 8 years with us, although every good thing will end and she has to return to her home for good this year, I pray that Lord, your blessing will fill her and her family abundantly, I pray that what ever she and her husband has planned to do, Lord you will bless her and protect them... I pray for her safe journey back home next week and I pray also if possible will be able to visit her back in Indonesia or she will return to visit us if she can.... Father bless her in Jesus name I pray... Amen...

2007-02-20T21:14:00.000+08:00

Title of the day: Blessed Chinese New Year!!

So fast Chinese New Year has come again!.... well this year CNY celebration is kinda diff from last year one... felt a bit lonely... haha.. oh well.... here i go again... =P

But still, had a great time this past few days playing with my cousins, uncles and aunties over at my dad sides... this year a bit specially also as we met out with my mum's sides relatives for two days also... and this few days of CNY is nothing but feasting and drinking, feasting and drinking, feasting and drinking... oh men.. dont know gain how many KG of fats liao!!! hahaha... ;)

2007-02-03T22:17:00.000+08:00

Title of the day = Fern and the Bamboo

An inspiring article about a person's encouter with God during trail time..

One day I decided to quit.... I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality..... I wanted to quit my life.

I went to the woods to have one last talk with God. "God", I said. "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?" His answer surprised me..."Look around", He said. "Do you see the fern and the bamboo?" "Yes", I replied."When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them. I gave them light. I gave them water.

The fern quickly grew from the earth. Its brilliant green covered the floor. Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo. In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful. And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo". He said. "In the third year, there was still nothing from the bamboo seed. But I would not quit.

In the fourth year, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. I would not quit."He said. "Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth. Compared to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant. But just 6 months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall.

It had spent the five years growing roots. Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive. I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle." He said to me. "Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots. I would not quit on the bamboo. I will never quit on you.

"Don't compare yourself to others." He said. "The bamboo had a different purpose than the fern, yet, they both make the forest beautiful.""Your time will come, "God said to me. " You will rise high!" "How high should I rise?" I asked. "How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return."As high as it can?" I questioned."Yes." He said, "Give me glory by rising as high as you can."

I left the forest and brought back this story. I hope these words can help you see that God will never give up on you........

Never regret a day in your life.
Good days give you Happiness.
Bad days give you Experiences.
Both are essential to life.Keep going...

Happiness keeps you Sweet,
Trials keep you Strong,
Sorrows keep you Human,
Failures keep you Humble,
Success keeps You Glowing,
But Only God keeps You Going!

Heavenly Father, I thank you for such a wonderful and beautiful story that you have share with us.. Lord, I thank you for not quitting on us, I thank you that you never give up on us, I thank you that you never stop watching over us and protecting us... Lord, the journey is tough, and sometime I just want to give up.. but I thank you for showing me that this tough journey is actually a moulding period to transform me into a person that will bring you glory... Lord, I want to be like the bamboo, to grow as high as possible.. so that every time when I grow higher, it will bring glory and honour to you... It is a process.. father, help me to enjoy this process... allow me to still be able to bring joy, love, peace, happiness to others.. thank you Lord, I pray all this in Jesus name.. Amen..

2007-01-22T00:23:00.000+08:00

Title of the Day: God's Perfect Timing

Today I have a chance to visit my two "old" friends, Benji and Eunice at their CMC chinese youth service. Today was their third day in running and the service has about 20 people included some adults.

Although it was a very new, small and young service, but everyone there was on fire with God! I felt the present of the Lord when I was there. Grace, use to be in YMM, was leading the worship... it was wonderful. I can see the anoiting of God was with her throughout the worship. I thank God for the gift of singing and in worship. She even compose a worship song! wao! Praise the Lord!

It have been quite a while that I have been ministered by God himself.. it has been a long time I have cry out my heart to him and today at the service... in God's perfect timing... he ministered to me and deal with issues of hurts and anger... I was shocked.. I though I have overcome it... but the fact is it has been hidden in me for a very long time...

Sarah was preaching half way when God ministered to her and she just felt down on her knees and cry... Aunty Serene (if I got the name correct) came to pray for her and ministered to her. While we were praying, aunty Serene came over to me and told me that she has lead by the spirit to ask me to let out my anger and hurts that I have kept in me... I was stunned... I couldnt believe it at first but as the worship continue, benji began to pray for me and finally... I was touch by the holy spirit to let out all my hurts and burden I have.... I cried...

Suddenly I felt a big hug coming from my back... it was aunty serene.. it was amzing how God use aunty serene to tell me what I am currently going through! The brokeness, pains, hurts and anger that has been in me... Ltr after the service, Aunty Serene shared with me that when she look at me, God had remind her about a nephew of her whom has onces went through a tough time...

During those days, her nephew was a strong believer in God, but he went into a relationship problem which began to weaken him in God... he nearly backslided.. but God pull him back... during those time, Aunty Serene went through the process with her nephew and God just delievered this young men.. and now.. he is happliy married.

Wao... it was like... I dont know how to explained... God just use people to minister to me at a time, place and date which I have nv expected. Indeed 2006 was a crazy and painful year for me... and I long to be free... Today I finally understand two things,
1) God's thoughts is higher then our thoughts so is his plan, is higher then ours
2) God's has a timing that is different from ours... he will caught us when we are least expected...

I felt free.. I thank God tat he has ministered to me today and I want to pray that God will blessed what the chinese youth over at CMC has started, that they will be fruitful and multiply in numbers! that more and more people will came to know the words...

Heavenly father, I was caught unaware today by you... I thank you for relasing me through those tears that I have shed. I thank you for brothers and sisters over at CMC that has help minister to me. Lord I can sense that you are blessing this church greatly.. I thank you for placing Benji and Eunice at there for a purpose, which is to futher your kingdom sake and also to build a strong foundation of your words in those youth there.. Lord bless them, bless their work.. even though they are no longer in YMM, father I believe that no matter where we are serving... no matter which church we are in, we are still one body of Christ. Thank you for today, it was amazing... thank you Lord.. in Jesus name I pray... Amen

2007-01-20T00:38:00.000+08:00

Title of the day: Turning 23..

Oh 23 liao!! old Liao!! haha this is what some of my friends had told me... well supposely I should be feeling that way.. but this year was special. In fact I feel very young!! hahaha... some people might think I am crazy or what but I felt excited as I turn 23 on 17 Jan 07.

2007 will be a busy and challenging year ahead. I pray that this year will be a year where I will have lots of break through in my life specially in my walk with my heavenly Ah Pa!

Heaven Father, thank you for your protection and covering over me last year, indeed 2006 was a storm and I was once in the valley of shadow of death... but Lord I thank You for your grace and mercy that I have walk through it. I pray that 2007 will be a new year that Lord you will direct my path into a greater picture. Continue to shape me into the person that you want me to be and I pray also in 2007 to be use by in to do your work in all area. Shining for you, sharing your Love with others and most importantly, staying FOCUS on you and drawing closer to you... this is my desire... I commit it into your hand... in Jesus name I pray... Amen

2007-01-14T23:23:00.000+08:00

Title of day = Forgiveness

Forgiveness.... this is what is lacking in this world right now... It is a word that a lot of people dont believe in also.. but God in the bible has spoken many times about forgiveness... Jesus tell us to forgive a person 70 x 7 times... and when he say this, he means we have to forgive a person no matter what he/she has did to us.

Sound impossible? sounds out of the world? "you mean we have to forgive a person even till the extend of he/she hurt us badly or kill our love ones etc.." The answer is YES! wao... what an forgiveness... at first I cant accept it also, I told myself..."it is too hard!! not possible! not fair for me to forgive those whom has hurt me?!" But God say that if we dont forgive, we will be like a person, been cage up with anger, bitterness and this will affect our growth as a person.

I like this story that I came across when I was conducting anger management in this primary schools, that we share with the kids about forgiveness. The story goes like this,

"A boy was on the way back home when suddenly a bird flew over his head and landed shit on his nose! He was so so angry! He shouted at the bird and ask him to come back but it flew away. He was so angry with the bird that he decided to not clean off the shit on his nose as he is determine to want the bird to come back and apologise. So days went by and the boy stinks as he didnt clean off the shit, still thinking "I want the bird to come back and apologise!". He smell very bad and all of his friends left him one by one as they cannot stand the smell. finally after 2 weeks. The boy finally realise that the bird would not come back anymore and if he dont clean off the shit, more friends will not want to befriend him. so he decided to clean the shit off and he smells good again!"

haha.. well although this story didnt talk much about what is forgiveness, but one thing for sure that if we dont release forgiveness, we will be like the boy refuse to clean off the shit on his noise and soon the "smell" will cause people to avoid us. Not only that but we too will feel very terrible.

It has not been easy for me to forgive a person. But I thank God I am now in the process to lend how to release forgiveness to the person. It is really no easy, somtime I felt not fair! the person hurt me so much and cause me to go through so much and u want me to forgive the person?? not fair! But God remined me..."Son, is it then fair for me to send my only son to you, to die for you when u are sinning against me? is it fair for Jesus to suffer so much and then to die for the cross just to save our sins when he has done nothing?" I kept quiet... and I quickly repent and ask for forgiveness....

It is all about CHOICES. we have Choices to made whether or not to forgive the person whom has hurt us so much. and today.. I have chossen to forgive that person....

Heavenly Father, I thank you for you first forgive me for my sins. I thank you for telling me that the only way to get out of that pain is to forgive. I thank you for showing me that the only way to feel free is to forgive that person whom has hurt me very much. Right now I pray in Jesus name, that I CHOICE to forgive that person and I want to pray for the person that Lord you will continue to bless that person abudencely. I pray as I begain to learn how to forgive, Lord you too will forgive all my wrong doings.. let me seek you daily and keep me by your side. I pray all this in Jesus most mighty name.. Amen.

2007-01-01T01:31:00.000+08:00

Title of day = 2007... a year of Focus!

Happy New Year to all!!

A brand new year has come and is time to set goal for 2007... well last year I didnt really sat down and think what is my goal but for I felt that as I grow, I got set some goals for myself, goals that will help me to develop into a person in God likness... I ask God what can be my goal for 2007 and a word came frome him... "Focus"

hahaha... wao... Focus... one of my weakest link is I will easily lost focus in a lot of things and end up getting into trouble or causing myself to get hurt... thinking back 2006 was a year of high and low... I been through the lowest point of my life... expenciseing the worst pain I ever had before even till now... but I still choose to praise God for it... praise him for his faithfulness, comfort, and healing during the time of pain and stress... This reminds me of a song which there is a part says "you give and take away, you give and take away... but my heart will still choose to say, lord blessed be your name.."

Indeed 2006 Lord has gaven me a gift but however I lost this gift and is taken away... yes.. not easy.. many people say I am too emotional liao.. haha but I told them that's me... that's how God have created me... to take thing seriously...

Anyway.. a brand new year ahead... I pray that this word "Focus" will be my target, my dream of 2007... Focus on God, his work and mission, Focus on building up a healthy life and body, Focus on my passion for the young adults in my church, Focus on my spiritual walk with God, Focus on my relationship with friends and love ones, Focus on touching lifes of those youths I came in contact with in my work or in BB or in church.. etc etc....

Dear Lord, I wish you a happy new year! indeed, lord you are a God whom give and take away things that you feel is not doing gd for us, looking back in 2006 on those times of dark period, u gave and take away... I am sorry lord during tat times I scolded you, getting angry at you.. pls forgive me lord... forgive me for been ignorance about yr goodness for me... forgive me also for my sins that I have committed... I pray as you gave me the word "Focus".. 2007 will be a year of Focus in all aspects of my life... I pray that 2007 will be a break through also for me... I thank you and praise you in Jesus name.. Amen

2006-12-16T01:13:00.000+08:00

Title of the day : Pride... the road towards destruction..

Pride... one of the sins which God hated the most (Proverbs 8:13)
Pride... that will lead to violence ultimately (Psalm 73:6)
Pride... that give birth to quarrels (Proverbs 11:2)
Pride... never lead to a good ending (2 Chronicles 26:16)

It is pride that lead to the fight which happen between one of my youth and his father in my work place today.. The pride which give birth to violence, quarrels, unhappeness, stubborness, abuse, anger inside the father. A father blaming, cursing his son for hitting him when in the first place is him who started the pushing and kicking and insultings. The best part is, the father deny his wrong doing and claim that it only right for a father to beat his son not the other way round!! and this is not the first time this abuse happens...

Poor mother helplessly has too deal with both sides, trying to push the husband away while pleading us not to interfere which make his barking even louder... Both me and my supervisor stop the fight and wanting to claim down the father but instead becoming his victim of his verbal abuse... I thank God my anger was not with me otherwise I cant imagin what I will do to react back...

Then I remember today's daily bread devotion title "Overcoming Evil with Good" Romans 12:21 "Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good". Luke 9:51-56 tells us when the town of samaritan village does not welcome Jesus as he need to passby there to Jerusalem, two of Jesus disciples, John and James asked Jesus if he need them to cast fire from heaven down to destory the village. But Jesus turned and rebuked them saying "you do not know what kind of spirit you are of. For the son of Man did not come to destory men's lives. but to save them."

Hmmm... what do the bible mean by overcoming evil with good? u mean like what happen today when the father threaten and insult us we must overcome it with good? Oh men... who can take it?? But... there is a reason behind this... I guess God is trying to tell us, if we overcome evil with evil example insult overcoming insult, it is a lose-lose situation for both party cause it might end up in violence But if we overcome evil with good instead example claimness, peace vs insult, it is a win-lose situation! we win of course....

Thank God, manage to help the youth to stay at his friends home temporality as the father threaten to harm him if he goes back. Will most likely put the youth in a shelter home for a time begin...

Heavenly father, I thank you that everything is in order so far, I thank you for your protection over myself and also the caseworker for this youth just now as we went to talk to his parents. I wana ask God may u intervene into this youth's life. There is so much anger in his family especially in both the youth and the father.. Lord, I wana break this bondage of anger in their family using the name of Jesus! I pray for your spirit of peace to fill the youth and also the father, I pray that during this few days of staying outside of home.. Lord may u speak to this youth and grain him peace in his heart, I pray that this few days the youth will be able to do a reflection about what is happening and I pray lord you will guide him.. I pray also for Valerie, as she continue to work with the youth and family, I pray for your present always be with her, help her to say the right words, help her to strong and courageous when facing that father... loved and compassion when she work with the helpless mother... thank you Lord, I pray all this in Christ Jesus mighty name.. Amen

2006-12-09T23:37:00.000+08:00

Title of the day: Circumstances...

"A positive attidue may not directly change your circumstances, but it will change the way you respond to your circumtances."

Habakku 3:18 "I will rejoice in the Lord! I will be joyful in the God of my salvation!"

Wao... powerful sentance isnt it... It was taken from a daily devotion calender dated 2 december, which I brought form the OM ship, doulos.

A positive sentance to counter a negative mind... I felt that now adays (including myself) are "train" in a way to always respond negatively towards an issues or happening.. we tend to think negatively first even before realising things isnt going to be so bad after all.

hmmm.... then why huh? why is negative alway the first to come knocking on our mind? actually I also hv no idea.. hahaha... maybe is because of the way we are brought up? was not taught how to challenge negative thoughts, looking beyond the problem and stuff... or we have been always bombarded by negative media news etc..

But one thing I know for sure.. our thinking will influence on our belief system and thus this two will affect our behavior. The above statement then show us that if we are able to change the way we think and belief... we are able to change the way we respone to any circumstances! but............... of course this changes is a process.. it is near to an impossible that u are able to change your thinking just like that!! it take time, patient and support from our close people we know.. well I am still learning too!! and I do fall many many times... hahaha.. and it is by the grace of my God and his strength that he has substain me throughout...

Phew.. it is not easy.. but I thank God that I am very fortunate to have a source of support.. a super nature... unbelievable... lovely.. and the list goes on....... Thank you Jesus.. =)

Heavenly father, first I seek for your forgiveness for greiving you over and over again with my thoughts and action. I thank you for your assurance love written by you in the bible that you are a loving father which is quick in forgiving and slow to anger... I pray as I grow, that I will be lead by your holy spirit.. to become a person of your will and a person that will seek you... help me also to have a positive attidue to counter any storm which is ahead of me.. help me to rejoyce in you despite the pain, difficultly, stress and tirness.. I pray for my friends also who read this prayer that they too will find this source of strength which is from you and you alone only.... thank you father... I pray all this in Jesus name.. Amen.

2006-12-02T01:06:00.000+08:00

Title for the day = Yoz.. what's up?!

Opps... hvnt been really updating my blog and some of my friends are complaining!! haha okok well here's some updatez about myself...

Life has been quite tired, stress for me this past few weeks partly because of my assignments (driving me nuts!) which due dates are so near.. and both needed at lease 2500 words and above.. (phew... thank God I finished on time).. and usually at this point of the year, back in office will be very busy too due to the large intake of youths refered case by the police for counselling... well otherwise personnel life.. still alright.. ups and downs here and there... and started to do some personnel plannings for next year...

2007 is not going to be an easy year for me.... especially my finances spending... just did a calculation... after helping to shoulder part of my home loan to HDB (plus saving, HP bill, internet bill etc).. my spending is going to be super super super tight... so tight that my daily food spending (including breakfast, lunch, dinner & drink) cannot more then 5 bucks!!! Gosh! I am still praying and crying to God that he will provide whatever needs for me with such tight budgets.... it is going to be a test of faith for me 2007... really trusting God to provide.... trusting him in everything...

Heavenly father, hear my cry and anxiety... as 2007 approaches... father I know that it is not going to be an easy year for me.. but lord I pray instead of feeling anxious, scared, worried... I pray that Lord you will fill me with the spirit of faith, spirit of peace, spirit of rejoicing... I pray that I will still rejoyce despite all this circumstances which is to come.. I take faith in your words which says in
Matthew 6:25 "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes?"
Matthew 6:31-32 "So do not worry, saying "what shall we eat?" or "what should we drink?" or "what shall we wear?" for the pagans run after these things and your heavenly father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well."
help me father to control my spending, to spend on only what is needed and need to... I commit my financal plan unto your hand... in Jesus name I pray.. Amen.

2006-09-17T23:43:00.000+08:00

Title of the Day: In remembrance of the Crocodile Hunter - Steve Irwin

On 4 of Sep 2006, the world receive a shocking news, the famous Croco Hunter, Steve Irwin, was killed in by a stingray while filming....

I remember I was doing my assigment when I heard the news... I couldnt believe it.. I was overwhelm by the news... He was such a great guy whom devolted himself towards saving wildlife and animals... I love to watch all of his shows and program, he is always very lifely, funny and full of passion when doing his show... He died doing what he like and love...

I ask God why must such a nice person been taken away so early, well I guess it is not up to me to judge but I believe God has his reason to take steve away at this time...

Steve Irwin, we will miss you always... Thank You for everything u have done.. Rest In Peace..

*a tribute to Steve Irwin - http://www.filecabi.net/video/steve-irwin14.html

Heaven Father, I thank you for Steve Irwin whom has such a great passion and love for the wildlife and animals... if is not for him, many wildlife will have been destoryed. Lord, you may have yr reason for taking steve away, but I pray that u will comfort steve's family, his wife and two child, I pray you will be with them going through this difficut time... I dont know if steve has accepted you but father, I pray that when I go to heaven one day, I will see him there too.. I thank you and pray all this in Jesus name.. Amen

2006-07-01T22:07:00.000+08:00

Title of the day = Diploma in Counselling Skill (Edith Cowen University)

Oh goesh! haha so long hvnt updated my blog... sorry too lazy and busy too heehee...

Study lor!!!

After 6 years of not touching books... now finally is back to books, notes and assigment again.. haiz... haha what to do.. need to upgrade mah...

(updated on 17 September 2006)

Next week is my very first exams!! is a written exam without any MCQ... sienz.. I hate written exams as my English is not very gd... but is ok, I will do my best and God will do the rest!! =D

2006-07-01T20:52:00.000+08:00

Title of the Day= The Passion of the Christ - The Mission Impossible..

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I was actually getting tired and wanting to take my afternoon nap after coming back to work... A sudden thought come into my mind... "Passion of the Christ". I cant explain this strange feeling.. so I got up from my bed.. search for the VCD of the "The Passion of the Christ", started my VCD player and the moive rolls on...

I have watch this movie for a few time but this time round is really different... Passion of the Christ talks about the last 12 hrs of his life on earth... how he was brutally tortured physically, and even in his emotion when he knows about his mission on earth, this mission no one can ever carried out.. too heavy for anyone of us to carry... not even Tom Cruise can do it.. "The real Mission Impossible"..... To die for all of us.... to pay for our sin.... to create a way for us to God...

I teared.. this is the first time I teared when I watch this movie, the first time when I watch in cinema with a group of my church friends... most of them teared except me... I am not saying that I must teared or what but.... or preharps I didnt really watch it with an open heart and mind... I didnt feel so much as how Jesus has gone throught.. yes.. all I know throughout my whole Christian life, I seen, heard, read about how Jesus suffered for us and die and rose again...
but how did he really suffered? The Passion of the Christ brought alive that suffering of Jesus to me... people can debated "this maybe a just a story" or "the movie over do it" but I myself personnel believe that this is how he suffered 2000 yrs ago... believe it or not...

In John 10: 1 onward, Jesus say that he is the shepherd and we are his sheeps, only his sheep know his voice and follow him. I am curious, why the Lord will say that only those sheep that is belong to him will recongise his voice and follow him? (4-5). It is because in his world, many people heard about him, heard his story and teaching. but is only those whom are "his sheep" will know his voice and believe in him.. and have eternal life... Amen...

Heavenly father, I thank you for having movie like passion of the Christ to show and speak to us how your grace and love shown to us throught your only Son Jesus Christ whom suffered badlly and die for us on the cross... I pray for all my friend, those whom had heard you before but yet to believe.. I pray for them... I pray that they will recongise and accept this gift that you have given us... this gift that is free of charge, this gift that will protect and strengthen us, this gift that will love us when no one will in this world... I pray for them.. to recongise their savior voice and become his sheep under his care... I pray for my friends, elaine, zhong han, jack, Joanne, Mas, hariana, steve, Carol and many more whom had heard or get close to his guy Jesus... I pray that they will not think that Christianity is only just another religion, or Christian just want to expand their belief and have more Christians, but father I pray that they will be able to be saved into heaven and also find a way that they can seek comfort and love when no one in this world can give them... I pray for your protection and blessing to be upon them.. in Jesus name.. Amen..

2006-06-08T21:54:00.000+08:00

Title of the day= China! Here I come!!!

Heavenly Father, blessed our trip in China, I pray for your protection over the whole team, against any illness, sickness most importantly a safe passing through the custom over at China. Father, I pray for door of opp to be open for us to share about u with the group of students we are meeting. Alot of things has been happening for the pass few months and things dont seems to get right, I wana ask for your forgiveness for sining against you with thoughts, words or deeds, father I want to draw close to you, I want to learn to know you more, father I pray for healing too for my emotional hurts I have too... So I pray that this trip will be a break throught for me in all areas of my life... thank you father.. I pray and ask all this in Jesus name.. Amen..

2006-06-02T00:01:00.000+08:00

Title of the day= The Team has been form!!

Thank God! our team to China has finally been form! I want to thank God also for Daryl, that is has confirm his going!As the dates for this mission trip draws near, I wana pray that God will prepare us both physically and spiritually for this trip. I am quite excited and I look forward not only to gain experiences but also to feel God in a different way.

Heavenly father, I pray for this mission trip that is coming, I thank you for your blessing upon me that I am able to go for this trip. I thank you for your blessing too for the team as we gear ourself really to do your work there. Father Lord I wana pray that you will touch me in a whole different way, I desire to have a close relationship with you and I pray that throught this trip, I will be able to focus more on you and also able to get healing from my past. I ask for your favor to be upon us, as we reach out to those students during the English camp, I pray for fun, laugher and gd bonding to happen, I also ask for doors to open to allow us to share yr love with them. I pray too for the medical work that we are doing in Lan zhuo, that the village we going will be able to experience your power and love. Protect the whole team with the blood of Jesus, anoit us with your present and comfort us with yr holy spirit... I pray all this in Jesus name.. Amen

2006-05-11T00:27:00.000+08:00

Title of the day: 25 years of serving the nation...

Today was the lauch of our new Care Corner logo, looks very "chi na" haha.. but is still very nice! The "C" representing Care Corner, and the painted heart shape representing a caring heart to our client and the chinese word "guan huai" means Care or Caring in Chinese... the Red repsenting the blood of Christ which covers and protect the whole entire Care Corner Organisation..

2006-05-06T00:24:00.000+08:00

Title of the day: Reclaiming Land!! (my office desk)

Ok it all started off with my cute little office desk (sorry I though I took the pic but cannot find in my HP) Today I got a new computer! from my si fu (supervior) cause he is using a new Laptop (no fair sia) haha...

See the first pic? ya there is this one big hole there and my place is small enough already so after putting the big monitor on it, I decide to pull my desk forward to create more space... then an ideal struck me!! (thank you Lord!) haha..

I decided to do some reclaiming of Land on my desk!! hahaha... smart leh...

2006-05-03T22:32:00.000+08:00

Title of the day: The true meaning of surrendering to God...

what is the true meaning of surrendering to God? Everyone has their ideal or views about surrendering... but most Christians or in fact all Christians, including myself should have the desire to surrender your eveything to the Almighty God... yes.. everything...

It is easy said then done... but I believe this 3 key component will help us really to surrender our everything to God... Time, Prayer, encouragement

1) Time - almost everything needs time, cooking needs time, to build a house needs time, to heal a wound need time too.. so to really learn the art of surrending to God take times too! there is no such things as today I am move by the holy spirit to surrender everything to God, the next day I will be able too... No way men.. I have experience it before, I was very determine to surrender everything to God a lot of time, my worries, hurts and pains.. but however each time it only last for awhile... then I begun to feel lousy, hurt again the next day and I was getting sick and tired of it.. until one day God spoke throught one of my colleauge, she say "hey Jon, u cannot surrender to God just through one day or one night of prayer... surrendering to God is almost an everyday thing!!" that sentance struck me... pardon me for using this crude example cause this first struck my mind hahaha... It is like telling a person to go toilet to "let out" all the "stuff" in his body at onces and no need to go toilet anymore! how can? everyday if we take in food, there is sure to have "left overs" to be pass out from our bodies.. so what ever we took in daily, our holy spirit will help us to filter those "bad stuff" out and we will have to surrender it to God and God is faithful and just, he will cleance and purify us (1John 1:9) The side effect of not always surrendering will be having continuousness pain, hurts, guilts etc... So it take times!! =)

2) Prayers - Prayers is the most powerful weapon in the spiritual world and is only through prayer we are able to communicate to God. We need to always talk to God what are the things we will want to surrender, we need to let him know that we need help and strength to do that. It is only through prayer that we are able to scold, complain, whiling, showing our temper, crying to God.. huh? scolding and complain? yup! dont tell me you nv scold or complain to your parents before huh.. God will alway listen to us through prayers where is long or short, simple or chim ones... how to pray to God? some may ask, aiyo simple lah... just talk lor! (but end with Jesus name and Amen)

3) Encouragment - God place people around us, our fellow brothers and sisters in Christ, whether in church, workplaces, school or even friends.. we should always be there to encourage one another, to surrender ourself to our God and allow him to work in us freely. Encouragment can be very powerful and sometime God will use people around us to speak to us..

Heavenly Father, I need your wisdom to teach me what is the true meaning of surrending to you completely.. Lord it is really very hard and at times I fail to do that.. I still wana hold on to some issues in my life for this I wana ask for forgiveness... help me oh Lord to open up this stuborn heart of mine.. holy spirit I pray that you will help me by giving me a Nudge each time when I need to surrender to God.. thank you father.. I pray all this in Jesus name.. Amen

2006-04-24T22:59:00.000+08:00

Title of the day: The repairing process begins...

"Seems like your ship is in a bad shape captain.." a soft and gentle voice eco behind the sadden face. As the captain of the ship turn his view away from his broken, near-to-be sink ship, he saw a man, with beard, wearing a construction helmet and dress in a shipyard uniform stood behind him. "Hi" the men greeted him with a smile... "we met again captain". I was shock.. I could not speak of a word... guilt and disappointment suddenly been overwhelming the whole body.. as if it has taken control over me.

"Pls dont feel guilt or disappointment... I can understand how u are feeling now.." say the man... "ya.." I replied.. "so I guess the beam of light that has guided us to this here is from you..." "yes.. that's right.." the man replied. "Not to worry captain, I will be taking charge and overseening the full repair of your ship. We have the fineness technicians and engineers that will guarantee yr ship to be fully repair" he pointed around the shipyard "we will fully armor your ship too so that it will be able stronger then before..." " let me explain to you how the process will be like.." the man said with a smile..

The noisy sound of machines, tools hammering the metal plates fill the whole repair dock, technicians, engineers, harbour workers busy with their own areas of work, some repairing the badly damage outer surface of the ship, some help to carry out the dead bodies of ship crews whom have die during the heavy attacks, others concentrate on replacing the ship body parts... The repairing has begun.

As the beard man was walking with me around the ship, explaining to the captain about the procedures of the repairing work... my foot pace stop.. I crunch my fist.. looking at the floor of the harbor with a wrinkle face "why... why is it you are helping me now... I didnt listen to your advice and went on to do what I want to do... and yet you are still willing to help me?" That men stop his explaination, look at me with his usual smile and said "Dont worry... you are save here" He walk near to me and give me a big hug. Tears fill my eyes and flow like a opening tap... I whisper an apologie to his ears, he remove his hug and added on " Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as others gives. Do not let heart be troubled and do not afraid" "not to worry.. your ship will be repair in no time and it will be stronger as before... trust me.."

As he was about to turn around and continue where he stop, he said "I will let you know when you are ready to move out.. this time, yr ship will be able to withstand any storms or even enemy attacks.. I promise" with a big wide smile showing his pure white teeth... he continue his explanation of the repair procedures ....

2006-04-19T23:20:00.000+08:00

Title of the day: what is the true meaning of breaking, moulding and using by God?

today I receive and learn what is the true meaning of been break by God... it is terrible... really terrible.. no one ever want to hv such feeling of terrible hurst and pain in you.. the pain that is beyond what u can bear... but.. strangly.. I too feel a peace... a peace that is beyond my understanding... it is like when u hv been broken up into tiny pics.. to be re-mould by God again... not knowing what is the future lay ahead of you...

The desire of your heart... that has been completely smash.. those prayers, hopes and desires.. hv been completely smash... by God... I shouted at him " WHY LORD!! this is not the Lord that I have know!!! why must this thing happen to me!?! Why are u doing this to me?!!" the unexplainable pain and confusion.... why... is the only thing i can should to God...

but what about this special peace in me? could it be that I am already numb? no feeling anymore? or God is protecting and comforting me at period of time... Father.. this can only ans by you....

Heavenly Father, so sorry that I cant help to blame myself for the things that happen.. but Lord if u allow it to happen.. u must hv yr purpose.. I dont know.. father, I only ask that may you allow me to know what is the purpose u hv for me... help me to understand those things tat I dont understand.. speak to me in what ever way u pleases.. I am like a broken jar now... into many pics... if is part of this moulding process I pray that Lord I will feel the victory again... Lord I really wana hug u and cry out to you... no words can explain what I am going through emotionally.. no one knows... only u know... father I pray that u will remind me to be still and know that you are God.. in Jesus name I pray.. Amen.

2006-04-17T21:05:00.000+08:00

Title of the day: Is it the end? or just the begining....

Heavenly father, I thank you for the talk me and veron had with stanley.. although things turn out not what i pray and hope for, but Lord I want to trust yr will for us... Father I thank you for all the sweet and fun time I hv with veron, Lord even we have come to a conclucion that we will re-start off as friends... Father I still want to ask and pray for veron, I know she still has alot of issues that are troubling her, her past that is hindering her, Lord I want I want to break any bondages in her from her past happening in JESUS NAME! I pray that although she is still not ready into a relationship, I ask father may you build up our friendships... and I pray one day, may it be yr will that both of us will be together again.... Father, may your peace and comfort be with us... father I will be waiting for her.. waiting for her to be ready... to re-accpect this me and allow me to be with her again... thank you God... I pray all this in Jesus most powerful name... Amen...

2006-04-01T22:48:00.000+08:00

Title of the day : Aftermath of a storm...

it has not been easy for them i will say this past few weeks... was really going through a stormy period... Alot of things happen... one of it is that both myself and veron went through this dark storm... conflicts happen between both of us... and is quite a big one.. well I guess God has a purpose for this to happen.. hey which couple dont quarrel or fight... this is how they are able to get to know one another better ya...

Everyday was a tough day... but I thank God that I have God on myside that when ever I felt heavy hearted I will hide myself in a corner and cry out to him... it is him who hv given me the strength to go through this period.. I also thank God for one of my colleauge whom she has been very supportive to me.. felt a bit bad when I always trouble her.. but hey.. must make full use of God's blessing around me mah.. haha no lah just kidding.. but I thank God that everything has settle between both of us and I believe God has a great plan for both of us.. =)

Heavenly Father... I thank you for all thing things been sorted out between us.. Father I ask for the blood of Jesus to cover our relationship, father indeed sometime there is so much miscommunication between both of us and this give the evil one to allow to attack us but Lord right now I wana tell the evil one straight in the face that they hv no right in our relationship cause Jesus Christ is taking charge in our relationship and Christ has victory over the evil one.. I bind any evil spirit that tends to destory our relationship in the name of Lord Jesus... Father I ask that may your holy spirit lead me and veron and guide us in our relationship... thank you father... In Jesus name.. Amen..

2006-02-07T23:16:00.000+08:00

Title of the day: Our first month!!

today is a special day for both myself and veron cause today 7 of Feb 2006 marks our first month of been in a relationship!! wao.. time really fly pass quickly! I gave her a special gift on this special day. A nice bottle with a Lucky star (folded by me!) in it... I plan to give her a folded Lucky star every 7th of the month to mark our one month... and as the stars fill up the bottle.. it sybomlise our relationship growing deeper and deeper with the blessing of our Lord God Almighty!

Dear Father in Heaven, thank you for putting us into each others life. thank you for the smooth first month of our relationship.. thank you for your peace and assurance when we hv doublts or are attack by negative thoughts... Father, I pray that you will continue to be the driver of our relationship.. leading us into your will and a plans for us... I pray that as days goes by, our understanding will get deepen even if we hv conflict with each other, it will be like two rocks rubbing against each other.. we will smoothen things out.. Continue to bless us and strgenthen us.. protect us by the blood of Jesus from the worldy influence and any thoughts that is not from you... thank you Lord... in Jesus name I pray.. Amen

2006-02-02T23:05:00.000+08:00

Title of the day: Happy Lunar New Year!!

NEW YEAR LOR!!! haha soooo fast CNY has come! (although today is the 5th day liao).. this yr CNY is a blessed one and exciting as well. First day went to church and "bai nian" to God haha.. then went over to my 8th uncle (father side) to bai nian and guess what! Veron was invited! although she only stay for a while and not alot of my uncle/aunts/cousins.. but I felt very happy already =)

Second day is my turn to go over to her house and met her relatives liao haha... I was invited to her family lunch together with karen as well (of course she is invited by kelvin). was having alot of fun their specially receiving alot of ang pow!! After lunch, we went to one of his uncle home to play cards and I lost 13 bucks!! opps... haha shouldnt be gambling hor =X At night, veron was invited to my 6th uncle (father side) to hv steamboat! and this time she met most of my cousins and also relatives! haha so basicly two days both me and veron we are running around both our families =) oh ya one more thing.... veron... u looks really beautifu... =)

I really want to thank God for the first two days of CNY... was really fun and exciting specially at veron's family side, getting to know her family members and stuff.. I pray God will continue to bless our relationship...

Heavenly father, I praise you and thank you for the wonderful time that I have for the first two CNY that both myself and veron are able to meet and communicate with our family memeber.. thank you for the time that both myself and veron has spend with each other having fun. Lord I pray that you will continue to create opportunity for both of us to get to know one another more and also deeper into a relationship with you.. father I commit this relationship onto you, trusting that you are in control no matter what happen.. holding on to our hand.. thank you Lord I pray in Jesus name... Amen!

2006-01-25T20:23:00.000+08:00

Title of the day: entering into the faith of faith.....

it is time for me to make yet another decision... I am going to resign from my volunteer police work very soon as I want to make the full use of this time to focus myself on some of the committment that I am in this year. I am also planning to find a part-time job beside my fulltime job, to save up some money for my future uses like studies etc... hopfully I can find a job that is near my home so that I could save up some transport fees.. well I dont know.. I am still praying to God for an ans and open doors if possible.

Today have a great talk with my "Si Fu" (actually is my supervisor in my workplace) about the current situation. He encourage me to find a part-time when I am still young so that I could save up some money for future used. Then he share with me on what is it mean to have faith in God... I purse for awhile... suddenly I felt that just by saying that "I have faith" in God is no use.. I got to practice my faith... and I realise it is not easy at all!!! Having practicing my faith is like asking me to walk in a pitch darkness, not knowing what may hit u or wherether if u will fell into a hole or not... It is a huge challenge to me, but I guess every child of God got to take this first step of trust before going further.... =)

Dear heavenly father... It is easy to say that I have faith in you but yet it is so hard for us to even practice out.. father, I am a men of little faith.. I hv doubts and worries.. forgive me... I pray that everyday my faith will increase in you.. father, as I begin to start walking in to the faith of faith.. I ask for your hand to held tight on me.. just a baby learning how to walk for his first time.. guide and affirm me when I am in the pitch of darkness trusting you... light up my path lord.. I pray that what ever things may happen to me now and in the future.. I am able to contiuning trusting you that you are holding me that you are in control. I pray that you will open up pathway and opportunity for me in the area of my life.. that God will make a way, when there seems to be no where.... Thank you father.... thank you Lord Jesus... I pray for also may you touch my family heart that one day they will know that u are the true God and they will be save.. I pray for my girlfriend Veron, as she continue to work and studies.. may your strength be with her, may you comfort her when she is feeling sad or stress.. may you grant her gd night rest every night.. may the blood of Jesus covers her and protect her from the evil one... Thank you Lord... I pray all this in Jesus name.. Amen..

2006-01-23T23:53:00.000+08:00

Title of the day: Be still and silent in the Lord....

what is it mean to "be still and silent in the lord"? This is what God has put in my heart tonight... was on the way back after visiting some of the BB boys when i felt a sudden need to be silent and still, both in my thinking and speech... I was speechless... the laughing and talking in the car dont seems to interest me at all... I just wan to still and silent.... prehaps i was too tired i told myself...

after bathing and sitting infront of my laptop typing right now... i feel the same thing... I just wana be still and silent in the lord... I dont feel gd, I kneel down calling out to God... "be still and silent in the lord...." come in my mind again... does that mean I hv been too noisy this few weeks or so? or does God mean I hv been childish again? not behaving what I should behave at this age? and God want me to be still and be silent... I hv no clue at all...

Father in Heaven.. as my heart is weighting me down like a huge rock hanging in the mid air.. I thank you for allowing me to still pray to you and call out to you.. I dont know whether what does it mean to be still and silent in you lord, I pray that Lord you may enlighten me... I want to surrender everything onto yr hands... my whole life, plans... future.. onto your mighty plan.. Holy spirit, help me to be still and silent in the Lord when it is needed.. teach me and lead me into it... thank you father... thank you holy spirit... thank you Lord Jesus... I know that you are in control.. I pray that father u will remind me through the holy spirit, that u are always there and things are under yr control... I pray all this in Jesus name.. Amen

2006-01-17T23:09:00.000+08:00

Title of the day = The day when i was born!!

Thank you guys!! for all your birthday greetings, gifts and treat!!! hahaha I want to thank God for putting all my friends, colleauges, cell mates / church friends and even my cousins in my life! The most exciting thing is that at my office, there is 5 January babies too!! one is on 14 Jan, 16 Jan, me 17 Jan , 18 Jan and last but not least my boss! 20 Jan! hahaha... cool right?! we hv a big celebration back in office.. can also save money sia.. hahaha

This year is a special year to me cause I got my royal family to celebrate for me before my birthday, my cell and also my two lovely cousins whom bring me out for makan today!! thanks sooooooooo much! very touch! first time in my life that my cousins celebrate for me! hahaha

Father in Heaven, u hv created me in my mom's womb and today is the day I was brought to this world by yr grace 22 years ago.. Lord I thank you for all the people u hv put in my life.. I thank you for my family... I thank you for all the wonderful things u hv blessed me... Lord as I enter into my 22 years of life on this earth and as I begin to have more responsibility on hand in what ever things I am doing and involve in, I pray that Lord you are in control and may your power and wisdom guide me in making correct and wise decision in my work, friendships, families and relationship, allow me to show off your love and grace to them... so use me lord.. I pray also that Lord I will hv yet another break through with you this year, allowing me to enter into a deep spiritual relationship with you... Last but no least, Bless my friends, my cellmates, families, Colleagues, church leaders / mentors and also my gf.. bless them abundantly, let this be my wish for my birthday.. in Jesus name.. Amen.

2006-01-16T23:04:00.001+08:00

Title of the day= An Interesting day!

SPRING CLEANING!!! haha today my whole office is at a spring clean mode! preparing for new yr? haha not really cause ever since the centre open, there isnt any real clearing been done.. I will name today's spring cleaning, "Gold digging" operation! cause there are sooooooooo many gd stuff that has been hidden away! but most importantly, all of us hv a great time fellowshiping with each other!

I was on my way walking toward the MRT with my boss and two other colleauges.. then I saw this male malay guy was walking around looking very suspiciously... then I saw him walking around a van which is park at a corner, next time I saw him open the door of the van and too out the cash card from the cashcard slot in the VAN!!! I immediately shouted at him and start to give chase... my shouting alerted the van driver whom is nearby to give chase as well... The guy was caught my me in the end and the van driver, whom is also a malay, confronted that guy.

Although both of them were speaking in malay, but I can some how understand what they are saying, the guy were pleading the driver to let him off and not to call the police... That guy was a normal citizen and is married with a wife and have a young child... I saw his wedding photo and a child photo when he took out his IC after the van driver demand to see.... in the end the driver let him off with a warning... I just felt abit upsad that this guy, hv a proper family and yet still want to gamble his chance to steal... imgain if the van driver wanted to pursue the matter, he will be handed over to the police and be charge... not only will affect himself but also his family... just hope that he wont do that again..

Father in Heaven, thank you for your grace that has given us.. Lord I pray for that men whom had try to steal, that he will be able to kick the habit of stealing and nv be tempted to commite and crime... I pray that one day he will see the light that shine from your son Jesus Christ.. that he is able to confess his sin and turn over a new life... I pray all this in Jesus name... Amen.

2006-01-08T23:34:00.000+08:00

Title of the day: The New Beginning...

HAPPY 2006!! haha so fast another year has pass... well thinking back in 2005, alot of things happen.. there were ups and downs.. happy and sad moment.. but most importantly I thank God for a break throught that has happen in my life! =)

A new, a new hope... and of course a new beginning, this year is kind of special to me cause God has place a person in my life.. a person whom maybe my future wife.. a person special to me. well althought there is still doubts and alot of uncertainty ahead.. i just pray and ask God to lead us, hold us close so that we may grow strongly together with our Lord Jesus Christ.

My new year wish? well I pray that God's blessing and protection will be with his children.. there is alot of things to pray for.. but maybe i will kept it to only a few items..

Father in Heaven, thank you for the new year.. a new year means a new beginning.. Lord as we enter yet another chapter of history, I want to pray and ask your favor to be upon us... I want to firstly pray for my Church.. YMM.. that may u lead the church in yet a greater heights.. with new leadership install, may the leaders of our church lead us throught your divine wisdom.. may you use our church greatly to spead your word of truth and love given to us through our Lord Jesus Christ who die and rose again from death. I pray for the new youth ministry, the interns, the youth leaders, youth pastor James, that may u united us in one body of Christ.. remind us through your holy spirit that the whole youth ministry existed for only one purpose... that is for your glory and spreading yr kindom.. not for our glory nor honor.

Lord, bless my cell nehemiah 4, let us be hungry, very hungry for your word lord.. let us not to just stop and be happy of what we hv achive but continue to guide and lead us into yet a greater hight this new yr! we wan and desire to see more people getting save! so father, use us! use us like nthing before.. install this desire wanting to spread yr love and yr word to those non-believers.. let us be bold and couragous and let us not feel shame to spread yr words.. may the blood of Christ be upon the whole cell.. protect us from the evil ones...

Father, i give thanks for putting veron into my life.. i want to surrender all my worries, my doubt onto yr hands.. i want to pray for our relationship that lord may u take control of it.. may u bless our relationship, lead us to know one another more better and closer.. lead us also grow spiritually close to u, there might be fights and quarrals between us but lord i pray for your peace to be upon us, may yr holy spirit work in us remind us to love one another as how u hv love the people.. I want to pray also for veron as she is currenlty studying and working.. that amount of stress and tiredness she has.. I pray tat lord may u ease her pain, her stress and replace it with comfort and peace.. may she rest in yr arms when she is tired.. just as what lord Jesus has say " come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and i will give u rest." let veron come to you and get rest. fill her cup when she is dry, surround her with yr angels so that she wont feel lonely... Bless her and bless our relationship also..

Last but not least, I pray for all my friends and family, those who hv not been save.. forgive me as I dont even hv a sand of faith most of the time.. but lord I pray that you will still use me to sow your seeds among them, I may not be the person to do the harvesting but lord, I pray that those whom we hv sow the seeds will one day be ready to harvest!

I end the prayer with thanks giving that father, u hv given us a chance to repent and to pray to u through yr son Jesus Christ whom has die for us and rose again. I pray all this in Jesus name Amen!

2005-12-18T20:40:00.000+08:00

Title of the day = Christmas is coming..

haha opps.. so long nv update liao haiz.. so busy how to update.. haha well alot of things has happen throughout... for example hv been in three camps within two weeks! haha..

First is Camp Temask 5 days four night.. BYG camp, 4 days 3 night.. then my workplace LAP/GP camp 2 days 1 night... haha wao.. total around 12 days hv been in camp.. siong sia haha.. anyway thank God all the camps were very fun and enjoyable.

Time really flies.. Christmas is coming.. every year, no matter where u go, there will be christmas trees, christmas deco, santa claus deco things like that.. but I wonder especially for those non-christian.. do they know what is the true meaning of Christian?.. is it just a yearly holiday? or a time of presents, food and shopping? what is the true meaning? simple... the word Christmas... Christ... mas.. Christ.. its all about him.. Jesus Christ... and who is he? y is his birth so special that we are celebrating for so many yrs? the only ans is.. he is the son of God who has been given to all men kind, no matter which races, male or feamle, young or old.. he die for us, for our sin.. so that we may go heaven.. and he allow us to choose whether to believe him or not.... how great is the love for us.. I wish all my friends out there.. have a blessed Christmas =)

Father in Heaven, how great is thy love for us which u send yr one and only son to die for us and who ever believe in him, will hv ever lasting life! Just to believe only and we will hv eternal life! wao.. thank you so much for allowing yr son to die for us... father I pray that during this session of Christmas... many people specially my friends.. those whom still dont know Jesus will get to know who is he and hopfully they too will allow him to come into their life so that they will go heaven.. I pray for them in Jesus name.. Amen

2005-11-20T22:47:00.000+08:00

Title of the Day = The Ups and the Downs....

A lot of things has been happening around this few weeks, change of leadership in Church, the uncertainty feelings... fellow brother is Christ facing problem too... Personnel also alot of things happens... BGR problem.. well not really also hvnt offically started.. just feel maybe we need to wait for another two yrs to see if things work out or if both of us is what God plan... haiz... tired... indeed to hv so many things happen at the same time... phew...

Heavenly father... things do change.. but one thing for sure is that you will nv nv change, your love and grace for us will be there forever and ever.. so Lord I want to pray for firstly the church hving changing of leadership, we know Ps Gordon is leaving us and some of us may feel sad and uncertain what will happen in the future, but Lord I know that you are in control and things change because you hv a better plans ahead for us... Lord I just ask u will grant everyone in YMM specially the youths, a peace and comfort in our heart... Lord i also want to pray for both myself and a fellow brother that you will comfort us as now we are feeling sad and confuses.. I pray for assurance, for an answer that we are seeking... I pray you will show it to us by yr words or through people.. or even through things that happens... Father, we want to seek the right parnter that u hv for us in plan... I pray you will prepare us and also our future parnter to meet each other soon... I pray and give thanks in Jesus name.. Amen

2005-11-01T23:58:00.000+08:00

Title of the day: A very sweet and touching story..

Some nice and sweet story to share =)

Sally jumped up as soon as she saw the surgeon come out of the operating room. She said: "How is my little boy? Is he going to be all right? When can I see him?"

The surgeon said, "I'm sorry. We did all we could, but your boy didn't make it."

Sally said, "Why do little children get cancer? Doesn't God care any more? Where were you, God, when my son needed you?"

The surgeon asked, "Would you like some time alone with your son? One of the nurses will be out in a few minutes, before he's transported to the university."

Sally asked the nurse to stay with her while she said good-bye to son. She ran her fingers lovingly through his thick red curly hair.

"Would you like a lock of his hair?" the nurse asked. Sally nodded yes. The nurse cut a lock of the boy's hair, put it in a plastic bag and handed it to Sally.

The mother said, "It was Jimmy's idea to donate his body to the university for study. He said it might help somebody else. "I said no at first, but Jimmy said, 'Mom, I won't be using it after I die. Maybe it will help some other little boy spend one more day with his Mom." She went on, "My Jimmy had a heart of gold. Always thinking of someone else. Always wanting to help others if he could."

Sally walked out of Children's mercy Hospital for the last time, after spending most of the last six months there. She put the bag with Jimmy's belongings on the seat beside her in the car. The drive home was difficult. It was even harder to enter the empty house. She carried Jimmy's belongings, and the plastic bag with the lock of his hair to her son's room. She started placing the model cars and other personal things back in his room exactly where he had always kept them. She lay down across his bed and, hugging his pillow, cried herself to sleep.

It was around midnight when Sally awoke. Lying beside her on the bed was a folded letter. The letter said:

Dear Mom,

I know you're going to miss me; but don't think that I will ever forget you, or stop loving you, just 'cause I'm not around to say I LOVE YOU. I will always love you, Mom, even more with each day. Someday we will see each other again. Until then, if you want to adopt a little boy so you won't be so lonely, that's okay with me. He can have my room and old stuff to play with. But, if you decide to get a girl instead, she probably wouldn't like the same things us boys do. You'll have to buy her dolls and stuff girls like, you know.

Don't be sad thinking about me. This really is a neat place. Grandma and Grandpa met me as soon as I got here and showed me around some, but it will take a long time to see everything. The angels are so cool. I love to watch them fly. And, you know what?

Jesus doesn't look like any of his pictures. Yet, when I saw Him, I knew it was Him. Jesus himself took me to see GOD! And guess what, Mom? I got to sit on God's knee and talk to Him, like I was somebody important. That's when I told Him that I wanted to write you a letter, to tell you good-bye and everything. But I already knew that wasn't allowed.

Well, you know what Mom? God handed me some paper and His own personal pen to write you this letter. I think Gabriel is the name of the angel who is going to drop this letter off to you. God said for me to give you the answer to one of the questions you asked Him 'Where was He when I needed him?' "

God said He was in the same place with me, as when His son Jesus was on the cross. He was right there, as He always is with all His children. Oh, by the way, Mom, no one else can see what I've written except you.

To everyone else this is just a blank piece of paper. Isn't that cool? I have to give God His pen back now. He needs it to write some more names in the Book of Life. Tonight I get to sit at the table with Jesus for supper. I'm, sure the food will be great.

Oh, I almost forgot to tell you. I don't hurt anymore. The cancer is all gone. I'm glad because I couldn't stand that pain anymore and God couldn't stand to see me hurt so much, either. That's when He sent The Angel of Mercy to come get me. The Angel said I was a Special Delivery!How about that?

Signed with Love from:
God, Jesus & Me.

2005-10-30T17:53:00.000+08:00

Title of the day: Spiritual dryness.....

This few weeks hv been feeling very very unpleasant and mood is very shaky.. I cant explain what is it... it feels like dryness... very very dry spiritually... it is like the fire I have for God is getting very dim... Preharps I am in a midz of spiritual battle now.. or preharps God is testing my faith and devotion to him.. whatever it is.. I just pray tat God will not leave me.. and I know he wont lose me... =)

Heavenly Father... I cant explain what is this "dryness" I am feeling this past week but Lord you know what is happen to me.. Heavenly Father, I just pray that you wont forseek me nor leave me during this time... forgive me as I now adays dont hv the motivation to do my quiet time or read bible or even pray.. and I am feeling very very guilty about it... Lord, I pray that I will be on fire up again like what I use to be for you.. I pray that u will add oil to my lamp and let passion and committment for u to burn in my heart once more! Father, protect me, guide me and use me... I give thanks for people like Ps Tim and Sharon that I can sound the alarm to.. I ask for your blessing to be with them specially Sharon and the new baby that is in her.. I gave thanks Lord and I pray all this in the name of my Lord and savior, Jesus Christ.. Amen

2005-10-09T19:28:00.000+08:00

Title of the day = Servant Leadership...

Just came back from the 3 days youth leadership camp in JB (Malaysia). It was a very fun and meaningful camp where we got to discovered the leadership potential in us and also we got to know what kind of person we are in different areas of leadership... example, for team dimension, I am a Advancer, a person whom are down to earth, uses past experience or insight to determine how ideas can be implemented, recognizes ideas and find ways to promote them. Among the five fold ministries, Apostle/prophet/evangelist/pastor/teacher, my primary will be a pastor, pastor in the five fold ministries are describe as a shepard of the heart, good listener / sensitive to his sheep. Care deeply, servant of the lord, patient, kind, supportive.

It is very interesting to be able to know all this cause it will help a person to know and be clear on which kind of leadership path he will be heading towards. Everyone born on this earth had an unique personality and gifting from God. I thank God giving me a heart of pastor, a soft heart that cares, well somtime I dont really consider myself as a leader but instead, more to a follower/helper... but I guess God had plans for all of us.. those who believes in him... his great plan that nv fails... All I got to do is to trust in his plan and follow... =)

Heavenly father, I give thanks to you for the leadership camps as all of us whom went have indeed experience your love and benefit from the teaching and learning of leadership.. I give thanks for the fun also that we have.. I specially want to give thanks for those fellow brothers and sisters in Christ that you hv blessed into my life.. indeed, each single one of them had potential to be a great leader... a leader that seeks your heart and plan.. I pray for everyone of them including myself, that God you will lead us into a greater hights in our youth ministry in YMM. I pray that lord you will use us as a beacon of light that will bring forth your love and grace among the youths... Christians as well as non Christians.. Send us to the harvest field, so that we will be able to be part of the great work that you have place on earth... Lord, I prayer for the youths in our church is that no matter who will be the choosen one to lead.. all of us will stand together and be united as one in Christ! I give thanks and pray in Jesus most holy name.. Amen

2005-09-26T22:48:00.000+08:00

Title of the day: Goodbye Grandma...

It has been a week since my beloved grandmother (maternal side) has passaway and the echo of her voice, calling out my name still runs through my memory... I alway admire her being a widow, able to bring up 10 children inclusive my mom.

She was 76 when she passaway and she have been bed ridden for four years, four years of suffering... she had stoke, cancer, she is almost completly deaf and bind... and all sort of diseases.. before that, she was a chubby, cheerful old lady whom hobbies include, smoking, playing mahjong, card games etc.

She took care of me for a short period of time when I was very young. and then she move and stay together with my another uncle. When my family move to CCK, we stay near to my grandma and the uncle's family, same blk, same level. Is only when my grandma start to get ill, then she move to stay with my rich uncle.

Her death is not really a shock to us as the doctor had warn us that she will "go" anytime. For the pass four years... she had turn, from a chubby old lady, to a near bonely old women. I almost couldnt recongise... well.. although all of us were sadden by her death, but I believe all of us were also relief that she need not have to suffer anymore.

Although she is not a Christian. I pray to God before her body that thursday, and ask God to forgive her sins and if possible, allow her into the heaven so that I could meet her one day in heaven. I dont know if God really ans my prayer but I some how hv a image in my mind, of Jesus holding my grandmother, and my grandmother smile and look at him saying "Oh! so you are real arh!! " (in hokkien)... I keep thinking of this image through the wake... but I gave thanks to God for that. =)

I am glad too that I didnt hold any joss sticks even through I go through the whole religous ceremony. It is like a telling everyone that I am a Christian. I thank God for it. It have been a tough spiritual battle during the wake as I struggle whether if I hv to go through all those religous activities even holding joss sticks. I pray and told God, I leave everything to his will, and I ask for his protection. I told him that if my mom insists of me holding joss stick, I will have no choice but to follow... but I pray to God that let this cup passby me!! and praise God.. it did.

Monday was the last day of the wake, my grandma's body were send for cremate. when the moment we watch my grandma's coffin slowly send to the fire... I cant hold back my tears anymore... Two things that strike my mind that very moment.. first.. life is really short... and we must really make use of the short time, do the things that is meaningful and purposeful in life... second, that I , as a elders son in my family, God gave me a responsiblity to serve and take care of my parents...

Father in heaven... I gave thanks for the peace and comfort that you hv given us during the death of my grandmother, I gave thanks for the image of Jesus, holding on to my grandmother in heaven. I pray for my grandmother, that I may see her one day in heaven. when you lead my grandmother to welcome us =) I take this time to pray for also my whole family, that they maybe save also. That even if they do not accept you in the end, your everlasting love will still grant their access into heaven through me, your child's prayer. I ask for forgiven for my sin, that through the blood of Jesus I maybe clean again and forever.. I pray for those friends, colleagues whom had fallen ill, that your healing hand's will be upon them and their faith in our lord Jesus will heal them! I pray and give thanks all this in Jesus name.. Amen

2005-09-18T23:21:00.000+08:00

Title of the Day = An enjoyable Moon Cake Festival...

okok.. hv not been updating my blog faithfully... hmmm... getting kind of lazy somtime liao haha.. or there isnt anything to write...

Well now adays nthing happen much... oh yes... I was invited by the watt family to their family moon cake festival celebration.. haha not only me, karen also invited... well y am I invited? make a guess.. heehee... =P It was a wonderful and fun night... all of us had lots of fun.. and me most of the time, are "babysitting" samual! hahaha well.. it was fun also lah.. haha.. I want to thank God and thank the watt family for inviting me!! =D

2005-09-06T00:25:00.000+08:00

Title of the Day: A Godly Experience

Phew!... Time really fly... today is my one week! in Care Corner liao! hahaha... I was really bless to be able to attend their Care Corner Annual Retreat @ Costa Sand on the 1/9 - 2/9. It was a fun and memorable time we had. I got to know many new friends from other care corner family centres, counseling centres... and also some of the "teachers" whom had taught me during my counseling course! But what is the most memorable thing I will remember in this retreat is that first night when we had a staff appreciation night... and is also a night where we had an lovely encounter with God... =)

A very gd pastor (cant remember his name) was invited to be one of our guest speaker during that night. His preaching and sharing was very powerful and everyone was very attentive to him. After his preaching and sharing, he ask for an alter call for those whom needed prayer and rest in the Lord... some of the colleauges respone and some of them was overwhelm by the whole spirit and fell to the ground... There is this particular lady, a admin assistant in our HQ, was laying on the floor for a very long time, soon the alter call and prayers are about to finish but she is still laying at the floor motionless! The paster then was rejoicing and prasing God as the lady had been given comfort and rest in the Lord... After a short prayer over her by the pastor, she woke up.. and she begin to share with us what has happen, y she was laying there for a very long time and refuess to wake up...

She share with us that she saw a very very big cross infornt of her, and at the side, there is this "Man" opening up his arms facing toward her... she then walk closer to take a look who that man was... although she couldnt see the face but she know in her heart.. that man she saw was Jesus!! He spoke to her "There will be great things happening in your life soon". She was feeling so comfortable that she didnt want to leave... then Jesus say, is time for you to go back.. so he let go of his hand... just then.. she saw five angel surronding her and praying for her!

The Angels then lift her up into the sky and she know that she was flying! She was brought to a place where she saw there was a lot of houses, beautiful houses... After a while, she found herself on a patch of green grass where by the side, was a very very still water.. She laid down on the grass... and she was feeling very very comfortable.... soon after, she woke up.

Wao... unbelievable isnt it.... this is preharps a first real life testimony I have heard... what a Godly encounter! Her testimony can only prove one thing... that Heaven is real... and God.. is real..

Heavenly Father, I give thanks for such an Godly encounter that you have given to us, I give thanks to you for restoring and given those who was on that night of the retreat.. a good rest and comfort. I give thanks for all the brothers and sisters, whom are serving in Care Corner.. that they are your workers in the harvest field, Lord I pray your blessing and strength, will continue to be with us, with Care Corner, as we embark a mission of showing care and love to the community, I pray that you will use each and everyone of use mighty, that our client, regardless of what faith they are, will see the light and love which comes from you.. and hopefully, they will get to know you! I give thanks for the ministry of Care Corner that you had place me in. I pray that as time comes, you will use me to make a different in peoples lifes through care corner... father, grant me strength and wisdom... not by my own.. but yours... I give you all the glory and praises in Jesus name.. Amen

2005-08-31T23:53:00.000+08:00

Title of the day = A Worker in the Harvest Fields...

Today is my 3rd day at work and I am thankful for what God had plan for me. I got to know a group of very nice, funny, friendly colleagues and also a fellow Sisters / Brothers in Christ! I want to thank God for Ms Woo, the centre manager of Care Corner Family Service Centre (Admiralty), for giving me a chance to take up this Job. I am also thankful for my direct supervisor, Wintson, a devoted child of God, whom had been guiding and helping me so far. Thank you guys!! =D

My Job will be supporting and assisting Wintson (Social Worker), dealing with youth programmes, particularly GP (Guidance Programme). GP is for those youths, 16 yrs and below, whom had committed Crime. It is like a "second" chances given to them by the police. The youths will have to go through a period of 6 months of GP which include, counselling for both parents and youths, involving in group work, community service, camps, outdoor activities etc. Upon completion of 6 month GP, if their performance is good and did not commit any crimes, they will only be given a warning by the police. In the future, I may be involve in other similiar youth out reach programmes which is under going the process of approval.

Knowing the nature of my Job, it reminds me of Matthew 9:37-38 "Then he (Jesus) say to the disciples, "The Harvest is pentiful, but the workers are few. Ask the Lord of the harvest, therefore, to send out workers into his harvest field!" The number of youths whom committed are increasing, and personally, I hv meet a few whom came with their parents for the GP Introduction... all I see in their face was "Lost" "without direction" just like a sheeps without a shephard... and mostly are Malays... I pray that God will have mercy upon them..

Interestingly, this few days have heard my colleagues or pastor sharing about real life story of those Malays Christians, how they come to know Jesus and how they are prosecuted by their familys and friends once they become a Christian. Valerie, one of my colleague whom is a counselor at my centre, share how she was lead by the holy spirit to pray for a muslim malay girl whom are hopping to meet up her real mother. A few weeks later, the girl send an email saying that the prayer had come true! She finally got to meet up her mother! Wao... isnt God amazing or what huh... I just pray that God will not only use me to help the youths, but also to lead them to Christ. Our Comforter and Counselor..

Heavenly Father, I give thanks for opening up opportiunity that allow me to help and serve those whom had fallen off the track along their way.. I pray that Lord you will be very real in my life.. so that I can show the youths, it is not by my strength and Love that I have help them, but is from you... your Love and Comfort... I pray that I will be more bold and courageous.. and also not feeling ashamed or shy to share the gospel with others... I pray for strength and wisdom from you.. and also a blessing to those youths that I am going to meet in the future, that I will be able to make a different in their lifes.. I pray and give thanks in Jesus Name.. Amen..

2005-08-24T20:16:00.000+08:00

Title of the day : Closing of a Chapter... Begining of a new Jounrney

"Everything has a begining... has an end" sounds familiar? It is taken from the movie matrix. This coming Satuday will be my last day of work in Heartware Network and also mark the end of my Jounrney with Heartware Network for five years... I have decided to take a break from volunteering myself with Heartware unless need help urgently. Soon, a new Jounrney of my life will begin, I have been accepted to work in Care Corner (Admiralty) as a Social Work Assistant! (Millions of Praises to the Lord!) It have been a desire to serve and help the community specially those whom are less fortunate and also those whom had fallen off the track of life.

I thank God for opening up the opportunity for me to work in Care Corner. I was very surprise to be offered this Job. I send in my resume this year January to ask for a Job of admin but I didnt get a reply until June, when Ms Wong, the centre manager of Care Corner (Admiralty) call me up to ask if I am interested in the Job as a Social Work Assistant. Care Corner (Admiralty) deals with delinguent youths, youths whom had drop out from sch etc. I pray that Lord will grant me wisdom and love to help them, and influent the love from God to them.

Five years have passed... It is through Heartware that I got to meet my first Mentor (spiritual Parents) Raymond and Sharon. If it is not for their guidance and encouragment, specially interms of my spiritual walk with God, I cannot imgain what will I be now... I thank God for this wonderful mentors I have whom are always there for me when I am discourage or in trouble. I never forget the day when walk into Church heavy hearted and was crying to God, there they are, standing beside me, praying for me....

"Raymond/Sharon, thank you so much, both of you are a gift from God for me.. if is not for your encouragment to attend church.. I wont be able to settle down in YMM and also in 62th BB Coy, thank you so much for begin there, when I am down and discourage. Thank you for your guidance and love. In my heart, both of you are my second parent to me, I am sorry that I have let you down and disappoint you at times... I am really sorry... please forgive me... =( I am proud you have both of you as my mentor! I will nv forget the days that we laugh, joke and the fellowship that we had... Thank you! =D"

Heavenly Father, I give thanks for the past 5 years of jounrney I had with Heartware. I give thanks for the opportunity to meet Raymond and Sharon. I believe you bring both of them into my life so that you will use them to help me grow strong and walk close with you. If is not your unfailing love for me, I might have fallen off the track, I wont be whom I am today. Father... I pray that you will continue to blessed Raymond and Sharon as they have been a faithful servent and child for yours and they done a great job, making a different in my life. I pray that they will contiune to shine for you and give you glory. As new chapter in my life begin to start, I pray that Lord you will continue to mould me and use me so that I can make a different in other people's lifes.. I pray that I will be like Raymond and Sharon, able to influnene your great love to others. I pray all this and give thanks in Jesus Name.. Amen

2005-08-09T23:19:00.000+08:00

Title of the Day: HAPPY 40th BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!

Happy Birthday Singapore!!! wao so fast 40 years have pass and our nation had been getting stronger and stronger each year! I thank God for protecting and blessing Singapore throughout this 40 years. I pray that Singapore will continue to grow strong at the same time not forgetting to help those whom are in need around us, in the poorer countries.

Heaven Father, I give thanks for the prosperity and security that you have blessed us with. I give thanks that we are easily able to get clean food anywhere, clean water, low crime rate, gd education etc etc that is too many things to give thanks already!! I pray that Lord your blessing upon Singapore will continue and I pray for more Christian Ministers to be raise up to be in the government. I pray also for more souls to be saved that Singapore will become a God-Fearing nation! I pray all this in Jesus name. Amen!!

2005-08-02T23:16:00.000+08:00

Title of the Day : Over comfortable Singapore?

Is Singapore too comfortable to be true? Has Singapore becoming so safe and prosperity that Singaporean are getting more and more self-fish? that they only concern about themselves? Heartless towards those people that are suffering overseas? or even our own fellow country men? Have our youths got over concern about themselves? concern about what they will wear? what food to eat? places to go? what are the best shopping mall to shop etc etc..

Luke 12:29 - 31 " And do not set your heart on what you will eat or drink; do not worry about it. For the pagan world runs after all such things, and your Father knows that you need them. But seek his kingdom and these things will be given to you as well."

The amount of time and money spend among the youths for one youth, could help one entire country of needy and those whom are struggling to even survive a single day...

Heaven Father, I give thanks for blessing us with such a wonderful country where there is no wars, riots, social disturbance... Father I give thanks for grace and love for us throughout this forty years... I give thanks to the easy acces to food, clean water, clothings, shelters, what ever we need.. you have provided for us... Oh Lord, forgive us, forgive all of us the youths in Singapore that we have been too comfort with what we have.. we even grumble and complain somtimes.. We are just like the Israelis whom had experiences your love and grace and seen your wonders, but YET! they still complain and grumble! Oh Lord, forgive us... forgive our ignorances..

Father, I pray that you will raise up an army of youths and prepare them to have a "holy war"! A war which is not against flesh and blood but against poverty and suffering of those people all around the world especially the third world countries.. I pray that Lord this Army of "Youth Crusaders" will lift up your banner high and make a different in the lives of those whom are suffering... I pray that Father, you will put this heavy burden upon the hearts of young men and women including myself... those whom have a heart to serve you, a heart for those whom are suffering... I pray that when the time is right, all those whom you have call on to... will ans the call.. the call for salvation. Lord, I pray for this burning passion.. in Jesus Name.. Amen..

2005-07-28T23:41:00.000+08:00

Title of the day: Breaking the Da Vinci Code

I guess those whom love to read books specially those fiction ones will heard about this very famous books by Dan Brown, "The Da Vinci Code" wooo.. sounds like a thrilling and interesting right? and I guess those whom had read it will admit that the books challenge alot of our human thinking... but one thing I will like to causion all my friends whom read it is that there is a "trap" laid behind this book... But I thank God for Christians like Collin Hansen, whom help to correct the concepts about the book and to restore the truth. www.christianitytoday.com/history/newsletter/2003/nov7.html

Well personally I havent read the book but certainly one day, I will like to read this book. I believe that there are others such books which challenge our faith in Christ.. this is one of satan's weapon to temp us believing that our Lord Jesus is not real etc... so stand firm my fellow brothers and Sisters! let no false accusation of our Lord shaken our faith in him!

"Heaven Father, I pray for forgiveness to those whom had falsely accuses about your own son and also question about the reliability of your words. forgive them as they dont know what they are saying. They think that they are smart.. but those fools didnt know that they have begin slowly consume by the pride, arrogant which is inside them. I pray that those whom had read the book or others false accusation book that lord you may open up their eyes and soften their heart so that they will know that you are the truth God, God of Moses, God of Abraham. I pray for the blood of Jesus to cover and protect my fellow sisters and brothers in Christ whom had readed the book, I pray that they will not stumble but grow stronger and deeper in you! I gave thanks and praise you in Jesus Name. Amen!"

2005-07-22T01:13:00.000+08:00

Title of the day : War of the "World"....

phew! what a long time since I have updated my blog! well was very busy then... didnt really want to update.. (okok I admit I am a little lazy too ya!) well.. was a up and down week.. same thing... I just pray that God will have mercy upon us...

Stay overnight at Tim house (not ps Tim) together with Kenneth, watch movie and play game! whahaha.... till 330am then we slpt. Church was as usual, everything was as usual, nthing much happen.. but I was quite worried for wendy as I was shock to see her pale face today during STEP class, then later part, I received an sms by PC that Karen Or (my da sao) was having high fever.. Stanley was sick too.. He got dirrhoea but still he did a wonderful job for praise and worship!

Today I hv a wonderful discipleship with Ps Tim and tat tong. One thing that Ps Tim encourage me is that "it is ok if u have been knock down, but you are not Knock Out yet!" which means it is ok if you find yourself always been knock down by situations but.. the most important thing is that you are not knock Out of the rink yet!

Father of Love, I pray for your healing hands to be upon my fellow brothers and sisters, Karen, wendy, stanley whom are feeling ill that may their health be restored in the name of Jesus! I give thanks for the different people you have put around me to encourage me, to guide me spiritually. I just pray that Lord you will mould me and use me to be a guiding star to help others also in the future. I give thanks in Jesus name Amen!

2005-07-10T23:14:00.000+08:00

Title of the day : The day where God's fresh anointing is upon me!

Today I was late in church... I didnt want to go church today.. I dont know y but i just dont feel like going...

I was awaken by my HP alarm clock. I switch it off.. and went back to sleep, but only not long after I found myself awaken again. This time I could sense two "side" of me are persuading me. "Do go to church today, is ok one cause u are sick mah... and yesterday u sleep at 3am due to filming... is ok one" another side (I believe is my holy spirit) "Come on Jonathan, you got to get up and go to church!" "but I am late!" I replied "then dont go lor! no point!" said the other "Come on Jonathan, you got to get up and go to Church!" said the holy spirit. So after much debate, I finally got up... wash myself and set off to church. Along the way I though to myself...."Oh no.. I am late again.... this time very very late..." "is ok.. better then u dont go!" I somehow ans back myself.

Thank God that when I enter the church (through the back door) the sermon only just started!! wao.. then I sat down beside tim, whom are alone behind. The sermon today was very gd... specially to me...

This week was quite a tough week for me as I am always enage in "spiritual warfare" against satan's deceiving thoughs... It is tough.... but God is faithful, he still holding on to me not letting me fall...

Father, I give thanks that you are always holding on to me even when I fall into holes of Sin. I give thanks for your unfailing love for me, I give thanks for the strength to overcome, I give thanks for the friends, mentors, churchmates u hv given to me. They are truely a blessing. Father, forgive me at times when I wanted to give up the fright... forgive me when during trails and difficulties, I want to quit.. even to the extend of giving up my faith in you! oh how foolish I will be if I do that!! Lord...

I pray fresh anointing from the holy spirit each time when I face a trail, I pray that I will always be reminded to trust u when I do not understand the difficulties I face.. I pray that I will be like Job, a men that will still praise God and give thanks to you even facing trails.. I pray that I will be like Jesus! my saivor, your son, that even ask for forgiveness to those nail him up on the cross! Fill my heart with thanks giving and forgiveness, love and grace, so that I will be able to be strong and still praise you when trail stuck me.. thank you father, I commit this prayer in Jesus name... Amen!

2005-07-05T00:12:00.000+08:00

Title of the day: Spiritual Warfare.....

"To Arms!! I shouted, as the battle cries fill the whole air.... I was under attack! The "enemy" storm towards me at all direction!! attacking at my emotion, my faith, my stronghold of God, I was able to recognise the enemy fast, it is them again!! The army of low self esteem! both armies put up a ferious battle.... but I was losing... just then... a bright shining light come towards me.... "Do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed. for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my rightous right hand." - Isaiah 41:10

Everyday in the office is like going to a battle field... a battle not against my colleauges (they are all very nice people!) but against the spiritual "dark forces" in me... The army of "Low self-esteem", one of the greatest enemy I have since sec 3.... But Glory be with the Lord! Victory had given to us through Jesus that I am able to withstand outwits all the attacks by satan, although sometime I was "badly wounded" but I thank God I was not defeated and I am able to be heal instantly!

Gracious father in heaven, I give thanks for the word you hv promise in the bible, that we shall have victory not only over death! but also over other weak areas in our lifes! Father, pls forgive me as many times I allow myself got "beaten up" by the enemy badly, many times I wanted to give up my faith... many times... but Lord u nv forsake me all the while... u are like the father carrying the son on your comfort arms...there is nothing comparing to yr ever last love... I gave thanks, I pray that after each trails... I will be stronger, stronger in you and I believe one day, I will be a Man of God! I gave thanks and pray this prayer in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ! Amen!

2005-07-03T20:49:00.000+08:00

Title of the day: A Blessed Sunday

Opps!! I am late for church again!! arh!!! hahaha... oh men... I activate my alarm clock to wake me up @ 740am, so that I could prepare myself to go to church and guess what... hai... I was awaken by the alarm from my handphone.. I look at it, switch it off and you should know what happen next... ZzZzzZzz.....

Haha... I guess the Holy spirit woke me up, I quickly prepare myself and rush down but was still late... haha.. =P I have a very bad habit of begin late... even to work.. I guess I got to discipline myself more!! cant blame me also mah... who ask my bed so comfortable!! whahaha

Today sermon was gd! It talks about how God, capture moses attention through a burning Bush!! (not the Amercian President hor!) Exodus 3:1-12. How God does a healing to him for his fear, shame.. How God does a total transformation to him! Moses has a longing to bring his people, the Israelites out of Egypt, out of slavery, but he dont hv the courage to do so!! But God does mircules upon moses and restore him! The sermon also talks about standing in G.A.P, G=Gracious, A=Anonymous, P=Passionate

After STEPS class, I went to West Coast Park, cause the some of our youths are hving a picnic, so after class, myself, tat tong, darly and Jerome. It was really fun! we were in a large group, the youths whom are there include, Justin, eileen, Karen, Kevin watt, Veron, emmy, shumin, Joyce, darly, tat tong, kien kuan, kien kie, Jerome and myself! we really hv alot of fun! I suggest that we should hv more of this kind of outing often for our youths... we can even include worship in our outing!

Heavenly Father, I gave thanks for such a wonderful and blessed sunday, I gave thanks for your words and also all the church youths... I ask for a special blessing upon them and their family, father, I pray also for the unity of our church youths that we may stand up against all trails as one body of Christ! not as indiviual... I pray that everyone will be use by you, as the salt and the light among their peers, wining souls to u... I pray for the continuing growth of our church youths in numbers, that they will bring their friends, classmate, school freinds, peers to church and experience the fire that we had, the fire that is burning in our heart, longing to worship you..
Lord.. give us the desire for u.... the desire to glorify u! the desire to persue your glory!! In Jesus name I pray... Amen!

2005-07-03T00:06:00.000+08:00

Title of the day: United Families... United in Christ...

Today was a up and down day of me... down as in I fail to do my given tasks well and cause some disturbance to some of my colleauge at an event..... hai...

I went off early because I am going to my 3rd Aunt (father's 3rd brother's wife) birthday celebration. Almost my entire father's side family had gathered in a resturant @ Chervon. Most of my cousin attended the celebration.

It was a very happy and fun occasion! I enjoy the company of all my fellow cousins! A few of my older cousins say that I have change alot, slim down and look more handsome!!! whahaha... guess is because we hvnt met each other for a very long time, alot of my family gathering, I could not attend. I could see the unity of my father's side families, between brothers and sisters.. I got a chance to talk to one of my cousin, his name is "Ming Zai" nickname... he is my father's sister (my 2nd Aunt) son. We chat for quite a while cause he was sitting beside me.. then suddenly, we talk about Christianity... and I found out that he heard about the gosph through youth for Christ movement and he actually believe in God!! praise the Lord! but he had not yet "offically" accepted Christ in prayer yet... and I heard from him also that his parent (my 2nd Aunt) objected strongly against him and infact, her elder sister, my another cousin, to believe in Jesus!!

I try talking to him and explain him about it is not just becoming a Christian... it is believeing that matters... I wanted to lead him into a prayer to accept the lord... but I dont hv the courage to do so.. I also dont know y... but I send him a prayer sms, asking him to accept the Lord by praying the prayer I send to him.... I begin to see God's hand to be in my family, I pray for more salvation among my cousins and even my own sisters... families... that one day, we will be a united family... United in Christ!

Heaven Father, I give thanks for blessing u hv given me... Father, I give thanks for such a united cousins I have.. I am glad to hear from one of my cousin that he believe in you.. not only him... and his elder sister as well... but due to their parents strong objection... they do not dare to acknowledge you... Father I ask for forgiveness to their sins, and also their parents, as they do not know you.. I pray that you will protect them and increase their burning desire to know u more!! I pray all this and give thanks in Jesus name.. Amen!

2005-07-02T00:15:00.000+08:00

Title of the day : The Power of our Lord Jesus Christ!

Just got back from the Prayer Concert @ Expo! It was very powerfull concert and indeed the our Lord Jesus was with us!! Hahaha.. during the concert and the prayers, tears just flow from my eyes like a running tap water, people may say that I am emotional which I agree I am, but today, it was the touch of the holy spirit that I shed my "Men" tears!! hahaha

One of the prayer was to pray for East Timor, the worldest youngest country but yet was the poorest in Asia... I still remember during the fever 05 concert not long ago... they are also sharing with us about East Timor. We were given each a small bag and inside the small bag, there is a card which state a nationl, each card state different nation that we are praying for... I was quite surprise that mine was East Timor!!

Y? haha.. a sudden mind come into my head... "Is God trying to tell me that I should go to East Timor to comfort his lost sheeps??" hoho... cause during the fever 05 concert, I was very touch on how God had use some of our brothers and sisters in Christ as his healing hand, to comfort those East Timor people... I too, wanted to make a different.. and I can feel a calling from God to go there for mission trip.. but I hold the though knowing that I am at times very emontional, and will do things without even thinking if it is really my calling!!

but today, I dont know... by getting the prayer card, hearding once again the healing mission for East Timor.... God? do u want me to do my mission work there?? I will let him decided...

Heaven Father, let your will be done upon me... you know my desire to spread your love and share your word to those whom are lost.. are u calling me to East Timor to make a different in the lives which are broken and lost? I dont know... father, I pray that one day, through the sensitive of the holy spirit.. you will let me know where my mission work will be...

Father, I pray also for my second sister Kai Feng, I ask that you will forgive her as she dont know you... I senes that you want me to tell her about your love and wanting to come into her life... father, forgive me of been not able to break the "unknow" wall between my sis and myself, I pray that you will soften my sister heart, that she will be willning to listen to me sharing your gdness and mercy.. I give thanks for everything in Jesus, most powerfull name.. Amen!

2005-06-29T00:59:00.000+08:00

Title of the day: To God be the glory!

Today was a normal day whereby I get up, brush my teeth and then go to work... life was just normal. I was in my dad's car when he told me a news, a news that deserve to give God the glory! My youngest sister, kai xin, got top in her class!! with a total score of 350.2 over 400!! She is top in Math, Chinese and science! She even got a reward from her teacher!

I was like "Wao!!" Praise the Lord! I call back home, congrats and praise my sister for her gd results, I ask her also if she hv thank Jesus and I guess due to her shyness, she reluctantly say "yes lah" hahaha..

Still remember quite sometime ago, I lead her to a short but sweet prayer to accept Jesus into her life as her "Friend" and savior. (in children version). Then I make it a point to read bible with her... During her exam period, I ask her if she got pray that Jesus will be with her during the exam, and yes she did! there was even once she share with me how she pray! haha...

Heaven Father! I give you thanks and praises for the strength and blessing u hv given upon my youngest sister Kai Xin, father I ask for your same blessing to be upon my second sister, Kai Feng as she embark her O level this yr, may your love and strength to be upon her and I pray that Kai Feng will one day accept u as her friend, and savior!! I lift up my whole family and I pray for their salvation! that when the day comes, we will be in heaven with you!! I gave thanks in Jesus name! Amen!

2005-06-27T15:32:00.000+08:00

Title of the day: A Disappointing day? Not really... =)

Just got back from my VSC (Volunteer Police) trail shooting @ Police Academy.... hai... the result was very disappointing... I fail with flying colours!!! hahaha... 37 out of 100!! what a "Bo Bo" shooter I am.... haha guess anyone out there can do better then me...

But well.. I still want to praise God that.... at lease I am not the lowest!!!! whahaha bad hor... =P no lah... I thank God that at lease all of us are safe.. none are hurt during the shooting! Praise God! =D and also thank God that this is only a trail shoot!!

well some of u may think that I am trying to be postive! but.. as what pastor Tim (my mentor) say... " reality does not determine your respone!!" which means... u can chooses to go to either " the postive path or the negative path! Is all about your chooses... God had given us chooses! even the angels can chooses.. (that is y satan chooses to rebel God).

So are u making the correct chooses?? Do u belong to the light? or the dark side?! hahaha sound like star wars...

Heavenly Father, I give thanks for your grace and love that you give us choices.. you are almight and powerfull God and you can do all things or change all things whenever u wish!! you could also make all of the us to believe in you just by a nap of your fingers!! but.. you chooses not to by giving us choices.... you even send your only son, Jesus, to die for our sin on the cross... oh God... there is no greater Love then your Love for us...

Father, I will like to pray for the two youths (ZiJian and Chua Siew Ling) that got drown.. Father, forgive their sins I pray in Jesus name... as they did not know u and did not know that they hv sin... Lord, on behalf of them, I will like to pray that their souls will rest in heaven.. may your peace and love to be with their family also as they now grief over the lost of their son and daughter.. give them strength and I pray that they will one day come to u as you are the true comforter.. counsellor... thanks for all the things u hv done for us... I pray this prayer with faith and in the name of Jesus, our lord and savior..

Amen

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Praise be with our Lord Jesus Christ!

Finally my new blog is up! haha.. got to hv discipline to update my blog often.. otherwise will be like my last blog.. even forget the username and password!!! oh my gdness.. "-_- hahaha! =P

Heaven Father, I detegated this blog to u lord... the reason I name it "The days on earth" is because I want to keep a daily or prehaps weekly personnel account of my Stay on this earth... so as when I met u in heaven, I am able to submit my Assigment Report upon your throne.

Lord, I pray for forgiveness and mercy if I ever sin against you again and again... as I am weak but you are strong! I pray that as each day passby... I will become more and more like Jesus.. I pray that Lord your divine strength and wisdom will be with me.

I pray to be the salt and the light among my peers, familys and even those whom I dont know and yet to know... so that when they see me.. they will see Jesus!! Father, let me the Seventy-two others whom Jesus had send out (Luke 10:1-12) Let me be the worker that have been send out by you to do the harvesting.." grant me the authority and power lord! that I may give comfort to people whom are weary, heal those whom are sick in your name! and make a different in their lives" I pray for the lost, the weary, the sick and those whom are suffering that may your mercy, love and comfort reach them very soon!

But first lord, be with me as I am preparing myself before I go out there to do the haversting, I know that the preparation will not be easy but father, I am going to achive it! Philippians 4:13 "I can do all things through Christ whom strength me!" Let your will be done upon every aspects in my life... I pray and delegate this prayer upon u in Jesus name.

Amen!